Michelle types here.

Umm

2010-07-19T21:39:00.000-07:00

May I suggest that if you give a damn, to go check out my tumblr account

www.perhapsmaybenot.tumblr.com

and follow me there if you're at all interested in my happenings

Double Bubble Bubble Gun

2009-10-31T22:20:00.000-07:00

When did I stop caring so much about my family?
As much as I find it disturbing to think that I don't give a flying fuck about the intricacies of everyday life that used to make moments worth living, I really don't miss the excitement regarding it infectious anymore.
Is that sad?
Am I morally obligated to find the everyday utterly fantastic?
I mean, I hear the same story, 5 different ways, 5 different views, and each tone is still just wanting me to accept and relate.
But, I'm sorry, I can't do that anymore.
Please, if your lives are so miserable, fix them. Take matters into your own hands, step up, find courage, do whatever means necessary and just live.
Stop living in fear, stop looking back and move forward.
For fucks sake, we weren't raised to rely but on anyone but ourselves, yet here we are - myself including - finding crutches to make our life easier.
Why?
Do we do it because we've given up?
Do we really feel so low about ourselves and our worth to just say 'here, help me, don't leave me, I need you/it/this'?
I don't think so. I really don't.
But it's almost as if the easiest way out is the only way out when you really have lost all creativity...

Sorry.

Maybe...

2009-07-25T01:10:00.001-07:00

I'm going to write something here.
I want to.
But I don't know what it's going to be...
Here's something old, that I wrote awhile ago::

"I would hate to be your downfall
The entire free lull;
It's the googleplexities,
The needing of your extremities.
Dying outside, and rotting from my core.
The low.
So low.
I lost your voice,
Hello?"

Yeah. It doesn't make sense. Much like everything else I've been thinking lately.
It's all just a mess, a compository of thought that refuses to sort itself out.

How can one want something that's never been had?...

The New Cities

2009-06-16T04:31:00.000-07:00

The New Cities
Dead End Countdown

Lyrics:
Exiled and pushed away, lost in time
Always I’ll be,
This bitter person who’s
Stuck right here, disillusioned.
Don’t stand by
If you don’t like what you see.
So once satisfied,
No I won’t take what you said to me

Give me some time, give me some reason
Make up your mind, cool off the fever.
Drama must die, so give me some way
To salvage this life,
Finally it’s over

You oughta stay away, till you see
What runs through me
Unless you get this game,
The only one I wanna blame

My promise is cold, you’ve never been told
There’s nothing to hide, I never did lie
There’s no way to win
When love is in vain
I won’t take what you said to me

Give me some time, give me some reason
Make up your mind, cool off the fever.
Drama must die, so give me some way
To salvage this life
Finally it’s over.

Dead end countdown (4x)

I know we’re stuck inside a dead end countdown,
With no communication.
Straight down, we’re drowning in the respiration.
We’re lost beneath the surface.

Give me some time, give me some reason
Make up your mind, cool off the fever
Drama must die, so give me some way
To salvage this life
Finally it’s over.

Give me some time, give me some reason
I know we’re stuck inside
Give me some time, give me some reason
Now we’re stuck inside

Dead end countdown (4x)

----
first verse speaks to me when the rest of the world goes quiet.
goodnight.

giving you more than you expect

2009-06-12T00:34:00.000-07:00

oh shit, where to begin?

Well... it's been about 12 days... i really need to WRITE instead of silently furry in my mind.

Dads girlfriend sent me a letter, by post, basically saying i need to be more open minded about the whole thing, that she's not trying to replace my mom, blablabla...
well, no shit sherlock, i'm not hating you for the obvious.
I JUST DON'T LIKE YOU.
it's dead simple.
and really, you're aloud to hate people because they bug you. because you get that feeling in your gut that says i don't want to be around you... she makes me feel claustrophobic in a huge, empty room.
...maybe if she didn't wear white mini skirts and low v-necks (she's 50+ and well over 150lbs) i may start to respect her.

point two i guess would by my brothers graduation, which was beyond pointless due to him still having another year left of actual schooling left. my school's way to nice to not let a kid walk across their stage with their friends.
really though, what does that show a kid? that even if he fails, it'll still be ok?
but after sitting through 50 kids get their diplomas, and then finally watching him walk, and then another 20 kids, i was ready to shot myself.
my cousin and i were occupying ourselves a little though, texting my brother (who i swear to god is the only kid who brought his cellphone and texted during the entire ceremony) and laughing at his facial expressions and random dance moves.
amazing.

point three kinda goes with point two: due to someone in the family pseudo accomplishing something, the ENTIRE family shows up. yes people, my house was crowded. i basically live in a box, and with 6 more people it was crowded as fuck. but it was lovely, i will admit. it was kinda weird getting up with the kids and doing silly things just because it made sense to them.
and then at night, my sister, aunt, cousin and i would watch a movie and talk about everything and anything.... and eventually my aunt and sister would crash before my cousin and i, so we'd move into the house (they all minus cousin were staying in my 5th wheel in my driveway) and watch Skins and eat munchies... mmm food.
overall it was a good visit, and since it doesn't happen and won't happen again for a long while, it was nice while it lasted.

hmm, i suppose that really it.
I have what is now 8 days left of work before my last day.
I move in August... and i'm scared.
oh, and i love dailybooth... best.thing.ever.

Tilt.

2009-05-30T23:27:00.000-07:00

So i've been sitting around bored.
Contemplating disconnection... which is strange.
But when i start having dream with people in them that i've never seen offline, it really make you wonder.

Sean's graduating. Well, not really, i mean it's a recognition ceremony acknowledging that he should be, but since he's a skipper and pure laziness he still has a whole one more year to go. So, umm, yay for a meaningless celebration that everyone we know is coming over for.
At least the cousin's coming, that should make the first few days go by fast.

I don't know what i'm going to do with all the kidlets here. It's going to drive me absolutley insane, but it'll be lovely.
As much as i gripe and complain about absolutely nothing, these kids are noisy.

that's all i really have to say... :/

"I have to go to my grandmothers."

2009-05-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

"Why?"
"I need to open a bottle of Ketchup for her."
Ontario was nice, after the initial "God i hate being around her" bits.
We bought a house. It's gorgeous. And it's not like I'm commending divorces, but thank god for them - it let us get our house for cheap :D
I probably mentioned this before, but the Carleton University campus is GORGEOUS.
I mean, it was only a quick drive to the main building and out again, and granted i need to take a proper tour in August, but from what i did see i really liked.
I'm back home now.
I got over my jet lag yesterday/this morning... i really didn't like waking up at 8am when my head was saying it was 11 on the other side of Canada.
3 more weeks left of work, so yay.
OK PICTURE TIME:
(dunno why the last two are hyper linked)

The weird waterfall thing at the arrivals terminal at Ottawa Airport:

Canadian Parliament:

A Corner of The Chateau Laurier:

Carleton University Signage:

On A Jet Plane:

The Canadian Rockies:

Its not like it hurts that much anyways

2009-05-21T23:25:00.000-07:00

I've been in Ottawa for 3 days? 4? i dunno.
And the first 5 hours i was here, it was great.
and then my dad mentioned his girlfriend was showing up and would be staying for a few days. Now, here's the thing. I really can't stand her. And really it's for no apparent reason i can think of. Her voice bugs me, her face annoys me. It's almost as if it's one of those "i have no reason behind these feelings". Call it a spidey sense, whatever.

So the last few days, which should have been relaxing, have been the most awkward ever. It feels like i'm the third wheel on a week long date.
Urg.

Onwards and upwards as they say.

We've looked at many houses.
And by we i mean, I walk around real fast, and my dad pokes about and asks questions and the girlfriend says her two cents, which then makes my two cents worthless because obviously he's blinded by her.

Tomorrow we put an offer in on a house. I think the one we want we won't get, and may have to settle for second best.
I've probably now just jinxed it by typing it out, haha.

Tonight i did manage to get out of my hotel, and my dad and i went to see Star Trek in Imax.
Totally stellar. It was just as fabulous as the first time i saw it, and on a GIANT screen it just ceases to amaze the crowd.
But it's weird, you know? Some people were laughing and some people weren't. Like the humour is different on the east coast. I don't know, maybe sarcasm doesn't come easily here or something.

Also, i'm taking loads of pictures, so i may one day just unload a few randoms on here, just to get them out there.
I saw the Kuwait, French and USA embassys today. That was super cool though.
I want to hit up Quebec before we leave, just so i can say i've been there, maybe buy something silly too.

I do need to buy a usb cord, or new camera however...

Two weeks til Sashi's home.
Bummer about the knee, but she's a good army (space) cadet, and i'm sure she's having an absolutely lovely time knowing her days left are numbered.

Tim & Jill

2009-05-19T21:47:00.000-07:00

Tim: *Testing out a sub-par tool* "Mr Binford obviously doesn't have good taste."
Jill: "Well yeah I know, I saw his wife at the Christmas party last year."

Home Improvement, one of the best shows EVER :D

Lmao

2009-05-16T02:01:00.001-07:00

Three things:
-Isn't preaching against some sort of invasion law?
--You've got to be kidding me
---I'm atheist. XD (no offence to those who do believe, it's just i don't, therefore this isn't 'helping' me at all.)

Showered. Wet hair. Dark Jeans. Baggy tee.

2009-05-16T01:28:00.000-07:00

Why does it feel like that people only know me because they'll get free finger sandwhiches at my funeral?
I can sit online all night, twiddle my thumbs, twitter a tweet and comment on pictures all night, i.e.: "You're hair looks fab!" "Looks like a fun night" (why wasn't I invited?) But all my efforts seem to get lost between the text box and the send key. I can tag them in notes, invite them to other sites, send then witty emails to my hearts content. Nothing works when no one else bothers.
I dunno.
Melodramtic, a tad, but ignored, yeah.
One day i'll totally disconnect.
But until then i'll thrive on memories from back _then_ you know?
When we were all friends, good friends. Not this "I'll i.m. you, and set something up" crap.
Picture taken by me. Vancouver's "Britney Spears Circus Tour" Apr 8, 09
Click to make it larger:

2009-05-03T16:25:00.000-07:00

remember those epic cocoa brownies we made, back in the day?
yeah, this ice cream kinda tastes like that.

Push - Marianas Trench

2009-04-06T21:37:00.000-07:00

---
J: "Why is it everytime i talk to you my computer plays depressing music?"
M: "Cause it knows i'm nothing but bad news."

oh, so...

2009-04-03T17:14:00.000-07:00

i'm having a hard time remembering to update this.

my brother came home sick today.
played on playstation in the dark...
after he told me "it's ok, i can't see straight anyways."
whatever, he's failing highschool anyways.

work. goodness. i don't like that place so much.
so much drama.
but, my box is going away, forever. on sunday. it's sad.
but never fear - there's still an octagon. it's like a box. but rounder... ish.

err.
yeah. that's it. really.
i hate the smell of salt air.
i miss the smog.

2009-03-31T22:09:00.000-07:00

I'm home.
Super bummed. Wish i could have stayed in Burnaby longer. It's so nice there.
I think that's basically all i have to say.
If you didn't read all the tweets, i'll just point out the obvious: The Marianas Trench show was great.
The awesome bit about the venue- The Commodore Ballroom - there's not a bad seat in the house. Yes, the barricade is ideal, but there's a balcony and seating around the stage if you're not super hardcore.
My brother isn't super hardcore.

I'm going to address this here:
If people that i think are my friends have an issue with me or my attitude, then they should be upfront about it.
"Best Friend" isn't a title that you just give to someone to make them feel special. Especially when you ignore them for weeks - texts & i.m.'s etc.
Just... dude, if you read this. Talk to me. Let me know if you still want to go to the FOB Show next week. I'll go by myself if i have to.

Oh, i'm going to see Britney next week.
Super excited. Due to put on a super production.
need to buy a bus pass afterwork tomorrow... go last minute shopping.

What I Learned:

2009-03-30T01:04:00.000-07:00

between 1138 pm March 29 & 1:05 am March 30.

-The sewage drains strangely resemble the RSS Feed icon
-Bus drivers are just as out of it as you are
-Tim Hortons (Lougheed 24 hr) Is not staffed (or front counter manned) at midnight
-The Skytrain stops at 12:15am on a Sunday (debauchery)
-Sean tired and sick makes for an epic taxi hailing scene...
imagine a mime, asking for a ride from a cab sitting across the street.
-Mac's Convenient store is, unbelievably, convenient
-My cousin is the most awesome dude, ever.

"Just another piece til you make another sound"

2009-03-28T21:33:00.000-07:00

Sitting at my aunts place, in her dim living room.
btw we didn't participate in earth hour. But I'm thinking the lights going up from production station did - i missed my bus stop because of it.
-sigh-

Tomorrows the Marianas Trench concert. It's going to be... awesome? I guess. I mean, I've been listening to Fix Me and Masterpiece theatre in between the Fall Out Boy, Lily Allen and All Time Low, among others.
But from what i can vaguely remember from their last show, a year or so back, their one of those better-playing-live types. Eh, we'll see. I'll take video and you can be the judge.

On the way into Burnaby was quite an adventure.
Tswassen was nice to see in Daylight. Usually I'm just leaving the island now to make my merry way here.
The buses were fairly efficient for a weekend.
The only thing different from regular was Sean. Yeahhh, i had to show him around. He gets scared easily. He's only younger by a year, taller than me by a foot (at least) and he was scared.
For example, on the Scott Road bus, about 6 teenagers got on and sat beside/around us. He was pretty much sitting on my laps because, and i quote, "They were like, gangsters or something."
I didn't flinch. Haha. Yeahh.

Anyways, the night has been pretty much droned on from there.
My cousins dog, Odin, is the most misbehaved pest. You can't leave anything anywhere because he eats it. He's a boxer, so he's tall... and he's only 11 or so months old.
Knocked over my coffee. (twice)
Ate some timbits.
Apparently it eats money too.
Oh Joy. I miss my Miley.

I woke up this morning at 930. My dad walked in with a coffee a half hour before my alarm was supposed to go off. I mean, seriously, my first day off in 17 days and I'm woken up before my alarm? Urrg. But i shouldn't complain, it could have been worse.
My dads lady friend came in yesterday. Someone should have rescued me, it's an extreme invasion of personal bubble space for certain. I don't know her. She's from Ontario. The first time visit out our way and she stays in my dads room. Is that at all logical, or do i have reason to be like "WHAT THE FUCK, WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, PLEASE LEAVE MY HOUSE NOW" ?
Granted, i'm glad she makes my dad happy. I'm not doubting that very obvious fact. It's just highly inappropriate for her to be there on a first visit occasion. Or so i think. Just my thoughts, scrambled, fried and ready for eating.

Anyways.
I'm nearly over whatever sickness I've been suffering with for the last week or so. I have most of my voice yet, the sinus pressure has nulled and all I'm stuck with is a runny nose and sneezing. I guess that's a good thing. I just hope i get a lot of rest while I'm here.
Oh how I've missed my trees, mountains and Fraser river.

"Oh Darling oh Darling."

2009-03-26T20:40:00.000-07:00

So mind all the hub-bub and flip-flop of templates.

Trying to find something. It's hiding.

I forget how to be cryptic. I want to be like that person who can hide notes within words. It'd be neat to be secretly smart like that.

I'll add all the side stuff, make it look more like home.

Tweet Tweet.

"Drown yourself it's not worth keeping me

2009-03-23T23:51:00.000-07:00

Just put it down right now and bow out gracefully"

i swear i'm working on getting back into things.

i'm thinking by the end of the week, i'll have found everything, my head sorted and maybe perhaps staring in the right direction.

i wish myself luck on this little life adventure of mine.

Hiatus

2009-03-01T20:33:00.000-08:00

Hiatus

Hi*a"tus\, n.; pl. L. Hiatus, E. Hiatuses.

[L., fr. hiare, hiatum, to gape; akin to E. yawn. See Yawn.]

1. An opening; an aperture; a gap; a chasm; esp., a defect in a manuscript, where some part is lost or effaced; a space where something is wanting; a break.

2. (Gram.) The concurrence of two vowels in two successive words or syllables. --Pope.

See You Soon.

(image by Martyred on Deviant Art - http://Martyred.deviantart.com/)

keep an eye on the tweets

It's been awhile

2009-02-19T00:43:00.000-08:00

I work to much to care about trying to keep the world up to date with what i'm doing, who i was with, and what i think.
i don't care enough about myself to feel anyone else would/will.
i relate to much to this thing i found on this website here:
http://www.xkcd.com
it's truly awesome.
keep in tune with the twitter feed, make sure i don't sink to far into a hole.
(If you click it, it gets bigger)

"I Don't Know How I'm Supposed To Feel Anymore"

2009-02-06T01:47:00.000-08:00

Lilly Allen
The Fear

---
Such a beautiful song by an amazing songstress.

"My arms get cold

2009-02-06T01:05:00.000-08:00

In February air."

So, i shall tell you what i did two days ago (in my head it was more like one day, but the whole posting-after-midnight thing means it's been two)

Wednesday was my only day off this week.
And how did i dare spend it?
Shopping of course!

Around 230 i headed on down to my old high school, Esquimalt, to go get my friend Kathleen and to visit a few teachers while the school day was still in session.
Yes I'm a shit disturber like that.
But it was also convenient, cause the one teacher i actually liked, Mrs Higgins, was where my friend was. So i tral-la-la-ed into the sewing room and said my hellos, and caught up.
I'm thinking of volunteering in that class on my days off, and since it's a last block/first block class, it's quite achievable.
Anyways, i went into the study hall as well after the bell rang and talked to Gail for awhile.
I love no longer being a student- hugging teachers is great.
Yeah, so Cole, Taylor and Sam found me and Kathleen (Cole has Stephs old locker GASP) so it really wasn't that hard to run into them.
Cole walked with all of us outside the school, but not to the bus stop because he had band (GEEK!) and had to leave.

While waiting for the 14 downtown, Jim called to see what i was up to, and was a little bummed to hear that i was heading on downtown and couldn't go to Wal Mart to go buy cheap ass sneakers with him.
Me, Kathleen and Emily headed on the bus, and Taylor walked across the street with Sam to head in the other direction.
After giving directions to Emily on how to get to Curious Comics, me and Kathleen headed up into Chapters to Starbucks to get coffee... and i guess the lady misheard me and gave me a tea instead of a latte, but whatever.
Twas still good... after it got cold.
We played with the new computers they have for about 5 minutes.
They run on Mac OS X, have the new power book keyboards, and are TOUCH SCREEN... they make this wicked noise when it's scrolling to the next page.
... I think this classifies me as a nerd?

After we left there we decided we needed proper protein type food, to we hit up the food court at Bay Centre, and ate so Japanese food and gossiped about everything and anything.

From there we headed on out to Baggins, where after much debate, i picked out a pair of shoes that they didn't even have in stock yet...
these ones actually:
http://www.converse.com/index.aspx?mode=pd&sku=108821F&csid=87#productdetail
I was greatly disappointed when the lady said that I would have to wait a few weeks for them to come in.
But since i desperately needed shoes, i found some-
These weird flowery tan ones, and ladybug slip on flats.
In grand total they were only $74. So i walked out happy.
We then headed to go get bubble tea, and after nearly getting hit by a car (my bad...) we managed to cut through Fan Tan alley and arrive like, 20 minutes before the store closed.
From there we decided to go on a random bus adventure, and hopped on the 31 that went to Fishermans Warf.
We got off before that, because the sunset was really pink, and we wanted pictures.
So we took some pictures, finished off our bubble tea, and started walking back towards town.
We took two lefts and somehow managed to walk through the main drag of James Bay, and hit the back of parliament. All in a straight line... GO US!

From there Kathleens mom picked us up, and we all drove around aimlessly for an hour and a bit... we pretty much retraced our steps and went farther - we hit water (we stopped at the ferry terminal to take a stretch) and then went through Sydney and then back home.
Her mom was impressed with my tim hortons knowledge.
It's quite sad i know where most of them are located in this town.
They dropped me off at the house around 8, and i chilled out for awhile waiting for Jim and Sean to get up and go to timmies.

About 20 minutes later, we were all out the door, and went to tims.
They wanted Subway for dinner.
I really wasn't up for that, so i got a sandwich at tim hortons instead.
I asked for no tomatoes... and what did the dude do... put tomatoes on it... and then he noticed as he was wrapping it up and asked if i was allergic to them.
"Nope," I replied, "I just find them absolutely disgusting."
He gave me and evil glare and handed me my sandwich.
... I guess that's what i get for using a subject and predicate in a sentence.
I waited in the truck for Jim and Sean to come back in the truck, and eventually they did.
My the time i got home my headache went away (Kathleens mom was smoking in her car... gives me nasty as fuck headaches) and i ate my sandwich with Miley, since there was no room at the table for me.

I headed to bed around 2, and Jim stayed up, since he had to leave the house around 4 to go to the airport to catch a plane to Toronto to go visit his lady friend.
Yeah.
Enough said.
Although i wish i had snuck into his luggage so i could then hop on a train to go visit Sashi in Montreal.
I can't wait to move to Ottawa.

Today i woke up around 1, since i didn't have to be at work til 5.
Me and Miley just lounged around, and then Sean came home around 215 since he had a spare.
He quickly left though, since he was called into work.
At 4 i headed on to work, and that's were i was for about 4 hours.
But on the bright side, i checked the mailbox on my way out the door, and my Fall Out boy tickets were sitting in there.
Fantastica of Fantasticness... otherwise known as STELLAR.
Another dead night, wasted... but at least i get paid to be there.

When i got home i took Miley for a quick walk about, and then sat down to watch "The Cookout" on PeachTree Tv.
Still hate that they took away my TBS *shakes fist*
It was a good movie, about Family and food, and life.
Sticking to your roots, you know?

Tomorrow I'm working another 5-9 shift.
So odd for me.

Hmm, i guess that's it.
OH! Tomorrow I'm going to go see Coraline with Taylor, which is my birthday present to her.
And her party is on Saturday and we're all going to go see the new Underworld movie.
As long as i have popcorn and a drink i should survive it.

I'mma going to post the new Lily Allen video up, NIGHTERS.

"Honey is for bees silly bear

2009-02-03T15:18:00.000-08:00

Besides there's jellybeans everywhere."

Still haven't found anyone to go with me to the Lady Gaga show at the Commodore in March. I could probably sell the tickets if worse comes to worse but I'd rather not.

Stuck inside Mayfair Hell again... With all the kids back in school its fairly empty around here- the echos of people in the food court are drifting to where I'm standing. Quite haunting.

...I've got "a very cartoon individual" stuck in my head and if there were people around I suppose they would think I was a complete loonitic for dancing to a song they can't hear. The 'Lama Lama Duck' dudes totally stole the melody off of that song. Tisk tisk.

I'm contemplating starting a water gun war out of the blue one of these days, cause I really don't think secruity would stop a kiosker gone nuts; I want to believe that they'd join in.
Either that or a walkie-talkie free game of "Marco Polo".

I disocvered a pregap hidden track on the Folie A Deux disc last night. Figures I have two copies of the bloody thing and its a random click on YouTube that leads me to the discovery. The only way to listen to it is rewinding the CD on the first track, not skipping backwards, and listen to the warbled voices to stop, and then letting it play. Its a cute little song that's about two minutes long, sang acoustically by Patrick. It totally makes the awesomeness factor of the record go up about 10 points. If you add up the other surprises of the record together- letting the regular edition play on your CD player to get the "Pavlove" bonus track, and the words hidden the plastic alleys (to go along with the blank pages in the CD Booklet) it makes for a totally wicked concept for the record, and the online content, although not totally up to par with the pre-order flash disc, is still a nice touch if you couldn't spend or (like I did, con someone into spending) $200 on a bunch of exclusove goodies.

I'm making my til shrill just so I know its still capable of functioning. Void-Clear-Void-Clear.

Kyles playing Sorry at EA, and talking to me on MSN.

OMG they're playing "Bad Day" By Daniel Powter (I think that's who sings it anyways) on the mall P.A.
Yesterday they played "Breakaway" By Kelly Clarkson.
Are you growing up from 52' Mayfair? Let's hope so, cause god it drives me crazy listening to the Beach Boys all day.

"Yeah, Yeah, You're asking for it

2009-01-30T23:38:00.000-08:00

With every breath you breathe in / Just breathe it in"

Been a few days.
Well, there really hasn't been much to say really.

Miley got a bath... we took her to petcetera and got her all purdied up.
It was weird dropping her off... like a kid on her first day of kindergarden... so sad but so happy.
When i saw her after work that day she was all white and clean... ahh, little doggles all grown up.

I beat tetris. Finally. WHOO.

Kovitz is still in Mexico til next week.

I'm getting those emo thoughts again...
Jumping on glass barefeet, that kind of thing.
Maybe i'm getting sick, or maybe there's to much change in the air and i don't like it.

....

I'm thinking about setting up a blog for all the memos i write in my phone.
They're mainly just poems, and i want to put them somewhere just incase my hard drive decides to crash one day.
... and it might be fun.

I bought Fall Out Boy tickets... as well as The Killers.
VERY thrilled for the March/April lineup that's coming together... Concerts are way to awesome for their own might.

The Stills

2009-01-27T01:20:00.000-08:00

The Stills: Don't Talk Down

Don't, don't talk down to me
Your head is moving side to side
Our temperatures rise
I hear the Devil outside

You're heading north
Well I'm heading south
Well I hope the words are right when they leave your mouth

Well I'm better off now

Don't, don't talk down to me
Your head is moving side to side
Our temperatures rise
I hear the...

Some things I can't be under
I take one more step
I'm lacing up my gloves

Well I'm better off now

Don't, don't talk down to me
Your head is moving side to side
Our temperatures rise
I hear the Devil outside
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My dad and Sean bought me Killers tickets today for my birthday.
I'm excited, April seems to be a month i'm highly looking forward too:
Lady Gaga, Britney Spears, Fall Out Boy and now those guys.
At least i'll be able to dance these fears (tears) away.

"Lets imagine the end before we even begin

2009-01-25T23:17:00.000-08:00

You've said"

Birthday weekend...
You'd think i'd have gone out, partied like a rockstar, experienced a hangover, acted like an idiot and resolved never to drink... until the next time.
But, no, that didn't happen.
And won't for another... 9ish days? Whenever i get a day off next.

On the 23rd, i worked from 130 to 6 (it was supposed to be til 530, but something came up).
I hit up tims before work, like usual, and Racheline made a wicked mocha for me, with a tower of whipping cream... twas amazing.
And then during my shift, one of the girls from illy came over and gave me a daffodil and mocha as a birthday present, mainly cause it was her 19th too, so after i was released, i went and bought her a card.
Anyways, by the time Jim, Sean and i left the mall, it was around 630, and after dropping Sean off at Tillicum, it was 7.
So not enough time to sit down and relax before picking up Jeanette at the ferry.
I thought it'd be best to wait for my never ending work week to be over, and celebrate it then... and it gives me a chance to somehow get BC ID...

We picked Jeanette up at 5 to 9, and the ferry was late anyways, so even though Jim and I arrived at the terminal late, it was almost as if we were on time... in some weird demented world that makes sense...

When we got home, we really did nothing, and went to bed once respective wearies got on.

The next day i was at work from 930-2.
Before work i was supposed to pick up a "Coming Soon" sign for the other kiosk, but it wasn't made yet.
And i didn't have time this morning before work to get it, so i'm getting it tomorrow.
ANYWAYS, everyone arrived on top of each other, except for the exception of Taylor and Cole, who was on the respective ends of "Early" and "Late".
Once everyone was gathered, we went to Build a Bear and built bears....
It was an unofficial birthday party, i still had to wear the sticker and things, but my bear now has a bunch of hearts (it's very loving) and I, along with everyone else (I hope) had loads of fun there.
On the bus downtown to the movies, Krissy and Amy decided that they really had to go home, to Study for the exams next week. Plus Amy was very sick, and i wanted to make sure she got some rest for the busy week she has ahead.

Once off the bus, Cole and Taylor headed to China Town to go get me, him and Taylor some bubble tea, and Shanna, Jeanette, Heather and I went to the bank so i could see how much money i had left...
I took out $60 to cover any movie admissions i knew i was going to end up paying for, and we headed to the theatre to wait for Sean, Cole and Taylor. (Sean was still at the mall, and caught up with us eventually).
At 415 we bought tickets and all were ready to go...
Me, Cole, Heather and Shanna all entered the theatre about 5 minutes into the movie, but was able to catch up on what we missed.
We saw Paul Blartt: Mall Cop, and after watching it i've decided i want a segway, will never attempt online dating, and the dude that played Vince on Will and Grace will forever be typecast as the badass gay cop.

We went to go catch the bus home, and ran into Ashton who was in town with his family, moising about taking in the Victorian lights.... which is just half-smoked dubies and old Christmas decorations... So Jeanette hung out with them while we waited, and the 25 showed up and we all piled on, minus Ashton and his family whom we waved at while we were pulling away down Yates.
We walked up the road, and Jim met us in the drive way, who handed me the dog and he headed out to DQ to buy a cake.
To entertain ourselves, we talked and then watched some Little Britain USA.
Shanna was quite shocked with the subject matter, and the nudity. But it's fantastic regardless.
Jim arrived with cake, and we ate.
We had just enough to go around, and it was all eaten.
Shanna had to leave first, shortly after we had just put on The Hithhikers Guide to the Galaxy...
after which we put on the first disc of Pushing Daisies, and Taylor got a call saying she and Cole had to leave about 15 minutes into the first episode.
I gave them both a hug when they left, and i melted for awhile on the couch...
And then when i realised that Heather was too, i made her bed and let her sleep, and headed to bed myself.
Jeanette stayed up for a while and played tetris with Sean.

This morning we three had to take the bus, so we were up around quarter to 9, got ready, and caught the bus... which was late... resulting us in missing the 50 downtown and having to wait is the windy cold for the 31.
We got to the mall around 1030, and hit up Starbucks for food and drink.
On the way back, Ashton called Jeanettes phone to make arrangements to meet up, and we ran into Heathers grandma who said she'd meet back up with us before the mall opened to take her home.
So at about 5 to 11, both had left, and i took down the curtains and read the newspaper i bought... it was all Vancouver news, so it was nice and refreshing to read about home.

After work, Jim picked me up and we headed on down to Timmies, and got, well, coffee.
I remembered I had a Kit Kat in my pocket, so we took a break and munched on that.
We sat in the Zellers parking lot for awhile, waiting for Sean, but then got a text message saying he was going home with Liz, so we left in a bit of a tiff and came home.

We made pork chops, side of cream corn, all that fun stuff.
Twas good. :D

Tomorrow i'm working 130-530...
Nothing exciting afterwords, but i'm hoping to get up early enough to catch the new LRR video.
Which should be up tonight after i go to bed sometime.

Hmm, what else have i missed...
Fall Out Boy tickets go on sale next weekend.
I get paid on Friday...
WHOO.

I want sleep.
Folie a Deux can sleep too, along with my MacBook.

"You wear your heart on your sleeve

2009-01-22T23:14:00.000-08:00

And i threw mine in the sky"

Work work work.
It only gets worse from here.
"Welcome to the saltmines"// i should have ran in the other direction.
But Kovitz was talking about teaching me how to do bank deposits and things... which is like, awesome.
And with the opening of the other kiosk, i'm going to be all over that aisle.
It's going to be crazy, like head-360 intense, but worth it.
Anyways, he's gone to Mexico come Saturday, so it'll just be me and the new girl for a week, and i'm going to be working hardcore to get things done, show that i'm capable of being more in charge of things.

In brighter news, tomorrows my birthday...
i'm going to be 19.
Legal across Canada...
Yes, it deserves to be celebrated... and ya'll can have a drink, cause i'll maybe have sip of something and keep to my straight edge ways...
WELL, until i head out to Montreal next summer, then i'll go crazy.

What else can i catch the world up on....
Err.
Jim has a lady friend in Ontario who's coming for a visit at the end of March.
I'm happy for him.

Oh, small get together on Saturday.
Can't wait to see Heather after like, 4 months.

I miss my old house, and it's stairs.
I miss the yard. The trees.
It's been to long.

"Same blood, we are, we are,

2009-01-20T16:03:00.000-08:00

We are the same blood."

I'm not going to complain today, it's a happy day for americans.
And although i am "North American", i'm not "American" as in a "US Citizen."
But i'm pretty stoked for the change going on down below the 49th parallel.
Congrats Barack.
=]

All The Words In The English Language

2009-01-17T21:04:00.000-08:00

Yakko sings all the words in the English Language.

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there is no rhyme or reason i want to post this.
i think it's cause i'm missing the 90's, what a good era that was...

"Now make a change / I'm counting down

2009-01-15T23:06:00.000-08:00

The mile marks to every town / And falling more in love / With the distance put between us."

ATL are opening for FOB, along with Hey Monday, Cobra Starship and others.
Kinda thrilled. Kinda excited. Screamed Jim out of bed. Pretty much bulletined it all over Facebook like the cure for the common cold was found. Yes, i went all fan girl, but I'm happy to say it's out of my system (for the most part) and it won't happen again... well until i get tickets. Which go on sale the day after payday. Total score and a half.

But tomorrow morning I'm getting up early and buying a different ticket: Lady Gaga.
Jim's going to be my concert buddy for that one, since it's going to be a 19+ show and I'm the only 19+ i know that enjoys the music... plus he kinda sorta WANTS to go, so I'll let him.
And since he's driving me to McPhearson in the morning to stand in line, it's really only fair... ok, so I'm making him work for it, haha. It's going to be a stellar show, since she's so amazing at being Lady Gaga, a persona vs someone normal. The crazier the better, for sure, for sure.

After ticket purchasing it's going to be back to grind. Work, 3-9.
Ah, i thought Kovitz hiring someone would lighten the load a tad.
I guess not.
Oh well. Monday is the day i get to relax. Not necessarily sleep. But you know, stare blankly at bright lights and watch the birds fly about past my bay window.

Work lately has been the deadest that it will be all year. And it's lame too cause for some reason, the BlackBerry MSN likes to STOP receiving messages in the middle of conversations. Technology likes to slowly kill me, one misspelled word at a time.
Anyways, it's been un eventful for the first 15 days of January. As it probably is destined to be.

Few days (a week and a bit) til my 19th. Ahh... I'm getting to old to be angsty, to mature to be fun... Maybe I've grown up because that guy who's in control of my "scene" is too, or maybe the best kids seem to know best.
But there has to be more to life then watching my glue to my shoes come undid.
Build a bears, Batman in IMAX, and ice cream cake. I'm looking for something between the sugar, pop corn and fluff. Maybe I'll find it hidden in the chocolate cookie layer...

Simply put:

2009-01-12T23:13:00.000-08:00

I Love Days Off.

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You - One Of The Boy's

"She's telling me to act my age.

2009-01-11T11:32:00.000-08:00

What's my age again? What's my age again?"

Decided to do a play by play note taking type blog for today, so I'm going to be writing what I'm doing at certain times of the day- I.e. When something important is done - and you can kinda experience the day of the life of me! Whoo.

830am: Alarm goes off, hit snooze
840am: Turn off alarm and falls asleep, dog came into my room around this time to, and I had to lift her up onto my bed since she's to short to jump up
915am: Dog leaves, and I keep my eyes shut, America's Suitehearts plays on repeatedly in my head like a lonely record
932am: Get up, get dressed, dog returns and attempts to eat my jeans, snarling at them as I was out of my room
938am: Head downstairs and stare blankly at my computer screen, checking emails, disqus replies and all that fun stuff
1018am: End of Hot Rod on Movie Central, so its timmies time!
1045am: With timmies and breakfast in hand, jim and I head out towards mayfair
1100am: Mayfair's open, tarps are down and I cash in, windex and sweep
1113am: Start this blog
1140am: Watch people milling about, and ask people if I can help them/ pull something out of the case/ if not, a smile and No Worries suffices. Loads of strollers, dads and old people. Typical Sunday, with the occasional scene kid to brighten my day. Such a hip mall I work at - word up!
1147am: First sale of the day.
1206pm: talking with the new girl at Accessories For All for 20minutes about height differences, fun stuff
1214pm: Robocop by Knaye West finally replaces the folie of America's Suitehearts.
1221pm: New line for Beyonce- "if I were a boy / I would never have bad hair day / no gel, no hot iron / just a hat and a quick comb."
102pm: Taylor and her mom came by twice, and they just left for the final time now. "What do you want for your birthday?" "A pony." LOL. I think she's getting me the City and Colour discs, SCORE. So I've decided on just movies and then cake afterward for birthday, now I just need to decide which movie everyone will want to see.
125pm: ...I'll have "What's the point for $600 Alex"
"What's the point of having Mayfair Mall open on Sundays?"
"So people can gawk and stare at expensive merchandise, and piss kioskers off by moving everything around just to purchase nothing?"
"That is correct!"
127pm: Please take you're headphones off while shopping. Thank you for you're consideration and I'm so sorry for the inconvenient. AND PUT A MUZZLE ON THAT CHILD, AND A LEASH ON THE OTHER ONE, SUNDAYS DON'T SEE THAT MUCH EXCITMENT! IT CAN'T HANDLE IT.
147pm: "I'll put him in a box. Yes... And then put that box into another box! And then mail it to myself and Smash it with a HAMMER!" - Emperors New Groove
155pm: Would you like a bag for your bag?
226pm: Clap on, Clap off, The Clapper
230pm: So, when did I write 'Concierge Desk' on my forehead? Bathrooms are that way, West 49s that way and my sanity is located about 10meters out that exit, if you excuse me while I got retrieve it, your patience would be much appreciated.
308pm: Cheese Cheese Popcorn and Pink Lemonade from Kernels, 7.77 W/ mall discount :)
321pm: Rest in peace black pen, you served me well over the past two weeks, with your rollerball ink dispensing and clicking function.
325pm: Things you should never say to you're girlfriend: I Don't Care What You Want. I just heard/saw it go down, and don't bother saying "Its not that I don't care, its just I don't have a personal opinion on the subject" to try and save your ass, cause it doesn't work, you'll get a glare and a snort in return, and buddy, that couch is probably where you'll be.
413pm: J'ai perdue la joue
423pm: "I might come back, I have to think about it." There's less than a hour, you're probably not coming back, and if I counter every "I'll be back" sale, I'd be halfway to Tahiti right now.
435pm: cashing out makes me feel like Ebenezzer Scrouge- Bah Humbug!
446pm: Last minute customer. Frack you and deciding last minute!
500pm: Tarp, Timmies, Home!

Alright, That's it, I done. Maybe a Music video later tonight or sometime tomorrow.

"Have you seen the news?

2009-01-09T23:58:00.000-08:00

I've just heard some real bad news."

Anyways, my Trois package came in like, two days ago.
What a horrid mail man i have, good thing i don't have to deal with him often.
I've lived in my hoodie ever since.
It's quite fabulous. Much like the Folie A Deux itself.

Umm, whatelse.
Birthday in EXACTLY 2 weeks.
Score.
Big ONE-NINE.
Last year i can blame anything on being a teenager, not like i do that anyways, but its the LAST.

Works been long.
Monday will be a much deserved day off.
I don't want it, but i really need it before i start going crazy and start talking and answering myself.

I think i'm going to be wired for sound when i wake up.

Jims on shift work now, which means 5 days on, 5 days off.
Which started today.
Which means no ride to work or home for the next few days.
LAMES.
But i need to start walking/taking the bus more. It's part of that be-healthier ish thing i wanna do.
And lay of the timmies.
HA. Like that'll happen.
...I think my arties are lined with "20 minutes Always Fresh" coffee.

I was listening to F.U.C.T, and it brought back thoughts and things... and although happy, most were sad.
That's the album that got me through the entire 2006.
The good, the bad, and the disastrous.

I need to put the pizza in the fridge, put some clothes in the drier, and i'm heading bed, i need to bus it to work tomorrow, and wake up fairly early to do so.

http://carboncopykiller.deviantart.com/
Pinocchio Story Lyrics: Kanye West
"Wise men say Wise men say Wise men say
The baddest niggas out there bro
Never figure out real love
you´ll never figure out real love
you´ll never figure out real love

It´s so crazy
I got everything figured out
But for some reason I can never find
what real love is about No doubt
Everything in the world figured out
but I can never seem to find what
love is about

Do you think I sacrificed real life
For all the fame of flashing lights?
Do you think I sacrifice a real life
For all the fame of flashing lights?

There is no Gucci I can buy
There is no Louis Vuitton to put on
There is no YSL that they could sell
To get my heart out of this hell
And my mind out of this jail
There is no clothes that I could buy
That could turn back the time
There is no vacation spot I could fly
That could bring back a piece of real life
Real life, what does it feel like?
I ask you tonight, I ask you tonight
What does it feel like, I ask you tonight
To live a real life
I just want to be a real boy
They always say Kanye, he keeps it real boy
Pinocchio story is, I just want to be a real boy
Pinocchio story is to be a real boy

It´s funny Pinocchio lied and
that´s what kept him from it
I tell the truth and I keep runnin
it´s like I´m looking for something out
there trying to find something
I turn on the tv and see me and see nothing

What does it feel like to live real life to be real?
Not some facade on tv that no can really feel
Do you really have the stamina...
For everybody that sees you and to
say 'where's my camera?'
For everybody that sees you to
say 'sign my autograph'
For everybody that sees you to
say that 'you all that' You all that
I just want to be a real boy,
Pinocchio story goes, I just want to be a real boy
Pinocchio story goes...

And there is no Gepetto to guide
me, no one right beside me
The only one was behind me I can´t find her no more,
I can´t find her no more I can´t...
the only one that come out on the
tour and stay, stay, stay...
Back when I was living at home and
this was all a big dream

And the fame will be got caught
And the day I moved to LA
Maybe that was all my fault
All my fault to be a real boy
Chasing the American dream,
Chasing everything we seen
Up on the tv screen
And when I- the Benz was left
And the clothes was left
And the hoes was left
You talk the hoes to death thinkin the money that the
You spent the doughs to death
And tell me what the fuck for a real boy

They say kanye you keep it too real boy
Perspective and Wise man say, one
day you´ll find your way
The wise man say, you´ll find your way
The wise man say, you´ll find your way
The wise man say"

"But i don't know much about classic cars

2009-01-04T21:01:00.000-08:00

But i got alot of friends stuck on classic coke"

Americas Suitehearts video has been up for 4 days now... have you seen it yet?

So, how was my new years?
fan-freaking-tastic. some of that was sarcasm, so of it wasn't. i'll let you decide what you want to keep.

anyways, Jeanette came over on the 30th, and she hung out with me while i was at work, cause like, i don't get time off. at all.
moving on...
so as lame as having no actual hang-out-time-in-daylight was, we had a good time in general.

New Years eve rolled into new years day, and 31 and a half hours later i finally went to bed for about 5 hours, woke up for an hour, and then went back to bed for a few more.
It's a tradition Jeanette and I have, staying up for as long as possible and watching the latest Season of Ugly Betty on DVD.
Season two was so JUICY. I loved every minute. It was totally fabulous. Kinda bummed that the dude who played Henry quit last December to go to an NBC show. Lamers. But whatever, i'll live.
We saw the Tale Of Despereaux. I started falling asleep at random parts during the movie, and i really shouldn't have. There really was no humour in it. Kidling or otherwise. But the vegetable genie thing was neat. All i'm saying is that if the 10 year old kid in front of me saying "mommy i'm bored" was BORED, i dunno how it's still in theatres.
...But Christopher Llyod is a voice. As well as Emma Watson. She plays a blonde hair princess. Figures.

On the first Friday of the new year, Jeanette, Jim and I hit up the bank and then went to Furutreshop, where i basically walked in with a wad of cash in my pocket, turned to Jim and said "What do you want." He picked out a $500.50 TomTom GPS System, and he's quite enthralled with it. I'm glad.
After which Jeanette and I went to Build-A-Bear and built, well, bears.
She turned hers into a scene bear, and it's name was Jello. Mines kinda emo, and it's name is Alexis.
Photos taken by Jeanette--
Jello:

Alexis:

She then hung out with me on my 6 hour shift, which during Cole's mom and Dad came by and i introduced them to her.
About an hour later Cole called and asked if Jeanette and I wanted to go to a movie with Taylor and him, so we said yes and met up after the mall closed and saw "The Spirit".
They wanted to see it to rub it in Krissy's face tomorrow, since she has this weird lesbian crush on her, and after i remembered what it was, i actually wanted to see it.
It was way better then Despereaux. It was so funny, so brilliant. Right before the movie started i bought Cole and I popcorn for a war, which never really happened.
After the movie ended Jeanette and Taylor left first, and since our seat were right above the entrance, i dumped my ENTIRE popcorn contents on her head. Apparently the people in front of her were pissed and were trying to yell at me as they were leaving. Yeah, good luck with that.

I miss movies with Cole.

When Jeanette and I got home, we watched the last two episode of Ugly Betty we hadn't seen yet, and then the first episode of the new season online. Ahhh, so good!
We went to bed at like, 3, but i didn't fall asleep til 6. I really couldn't sleep at all. And the bummer was that i had to be up at quarter to 8, so i went to work with hardly any reasonable rest.
So yesterday, i worked 930-130, and right at the end of my shift Cole and his family came by and he gave me his Christmas present, an $25 HMV gift card. Super amazing. I'm so stoked and can't wait to use it. I had to run though, since Jim was waiting for me out in the parking lot, so i didn't get to say much to him, Aiden or Shelby.

We took Jeanette to the ferry in time for the 7pm.
It was sad to see her leave, and i hope she had a good time.

Today i worked 11-5, and it was lame.
I think i'm sleep deprived or something.
I can't sleep though. I'm tired. But my mind is running a million miles, something i seriously can't handle.

Tomorrow i work 930-130.
Whoo. With all the kids back in school, it's due to be so boring. Whooo.

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T00:54:00.001-08:00

This is the top 5 Loves/Hates list that I contributed to AHomeboysLife...

Top 5 most awesome things about 08'
1) Getting my dog, Miley
2) All the concerts I went to this year- Cobra (x2), TAI, Mika, Madonna...
3) Graduating High School
4) Becoming more confident in being myself
5) Taking more responsibility for things, i.e. Phone Bill, Monthly Bus Pass, Clothes/Shoes/CDs...

Worst Things about 08'
1) No Vans Warped Tour in Vancouver
2) My "Trois" Package not arriving on time (still not here)
3) MSN Messenger for Mac / MSN Blackberry
4) Missing important birthdays, events and graduations
5) BC Lions choking in the Western Final against the Calgary Stampeders

And here's some awesome things/thoughts/re-caps of 2008:

- Hearing Kardinal Official on the radio for the first time with Akon. That track "Dangerous" made his year. We all knew up here that he was amazing, it's great to see everyone else acknowledging it.
- Layering. I hate high waisted jeans, so i'm sticking to the illusion of long shirt/short sleeves/various patterned fabrics look for as long as it takes for it to come back into style again.
- Vacuum. Started to ponder what came first: the one in space or the one for carpets...
- Hurley hoodies. Yeah, it's a skateboard brand, but it's super comfy and long lasting.
- The Academy Is: Bill, Sisky, The Butcher, Carden, and Michael are amazing. Their music kept me sane through a very long (cruel) summer. Still does. It's one of those bands where i'm going to be saying to my nieces "now, when I was your age..." and passing down one wicked worn in tour tee after another.
- My MacBook.
- Argyle.
- Growing my nails out [when i'm happy.]
- Watching Star Wars marathons alone, and the next afternoon having so many inside jokes to yourself that you become clinically insane.
- Iorn Man and Batman.
- Comic Books.
- Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog. Most EPIC musical EVER.
- Summer BBQs.
- Still hating BC Ferries, and the negative Karma being free passes back to Victoria.
- Cobra Starship bookending my year. Gabe is the man, and Ryland doing the Carleton dance was worth the admission alone.
- Popcorn wars in full movie theatres.
- Sarcasm. It's getting lost among the lower generation, it must be saved. Let's start a revolution and bring it back.
- How much i hate Twilight. Words cannot express how horribly written, and terribly adapted to screen it was. I didn't see it, but i could tell you how it ended: Buffy came in a kicked some major ass, and Bella had a miscarriage. Oh, and Edward died due to his sudden urge to become Vegan and stopped taking that wonderful drug that made him glisten in the sunlight- E.
- Yams and sweet potatoes. I just love them. Ok, so i just love thanksgiving and Christmas dinners in particular.
- Twitter. Even though no one i know uses it, it's like an online memo pad for my random thoughts.
- That sign on the bus last spring asking people who couldn't read to call the number to learn how. Haha.
- This Monty Python clip: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piWCBOsJr-w
- Horton Hears A Who with my two BFF's.
- Football Games. Yelling with a angry crowd is a rush. Yelling against them is even better.
- Jesse McCartney singing about a G-5 and Hilary Duff in the movie "War Inc." Both clear, concious career moves in the right direction of moving on from Disney fame.
- Making mistakes and dealing with them.
- Fall Out Boy's Folie A Deux: The amazing marketing campaign and it's epic failure... it wasn't all bad, but it wasn't very well executed on GoMerch's behalf..
- Finding Mitchell Davis on YouTube. Pretty much the best thing to happen this fall.
- A white Christmas. Never happens, and it was amazing =]
- Blogging. My blog isn't half as awesome as some, but it's sure fun to do.
- Chuck Converse
- Michael Buckley and his YouTube accounts, "WhatTheBuckShow" and "Peron75"
- Making Jeanette read things i write
- Lil Wayne, T-Pain and Kanye West's use of the vocoder to make pitch perfect singles
- M&M Cookies
- Madonna and her epic amazing extravaganza of the Sticky and Sweet tour

"what is it?"

2008-12-27T23:46:00.000-08:00

"It's The Puffy Shirt."

Ahh, lovelove.

Anyways.
Works been fun.
Amazingly enough. I think it's a combo of more hours, Mori and the work that needs to be done around there.
Ah, the stress and lack of sleep is slowly turning into a workaholic, and although it's making my head into a pile of depressing mush, it's quite a fulfilling feeling at the end of the day to know you've done a job well done.

Christmas was good.
The overall loot was as follows:
2 tims card
1 chapters card
2 hoodies: Hurley reversible and white element
jeans from element
3 pairs of argyle socks from "song"
a pair of fingerless gloves, they look like the Cheshire Cat chose the colours
and a gangster scarf like Weezy wears.
The family got a blu ray player, which is amazing... and Jim and I had already purchased a bunch of movies to watch on it :D

Sean loved the TV i bought him. He felt sorry afterword for not buying me or Jim anything (since he pictched in for half).
I'm just asking for something really nice for my birthday. I mean, it's the big one-nine after all.

George Kastanza's hand modeling career just got burned... literally. BWAHAHA.

The ferry ride over was nice, since we drove over and had the dog, we all stayed in the truck, and took a nap.
Miley was really good the entire time. I'm so proud of her and her manners.

At Marcias, Cynthia helped me bring up all the presents. When she saw the build-a-bear box in my hand she freaked, and yelled up the stairs "Auntie Dell Brought-us-PRESSENTS!". It was way to adorable. I love that chickie. The only rule was that both Cynthia and Mel had to give me hug before they opened anything.
And the tore open those packages like Olympians. Ah, i love those girls. Warren was a little skittish at first, and i helped him open up his blocks and ATV we bought him... He was motoring around on that thing as if he had always had it.

Marcia liked her Aveda stuff. I'm glad.

The night wasn't to bad.
I was civil. So be happy.
The only thing that didn't turn out was my cranberries. They wouldn't cool so they weren't ready in time for dinner. Oh well.

Jim and I were spending the night at my aunts, and i was so tired by the time we arrived i fell asleep before the end of Dane Cooks "vicious Circle" special on Comedy Central.
Miley was a good dog, and slept soundly in her kennel.
Odin was a pain, but whatever. He's still learning and being stubborn.

On boxing day Jim had some running around to do, and since it was snowing i decided it would be easier for me to stay at my aunts. I was going to go to Jeanettes house, but she wasn't up anyway, and i didn't really feel like waking her. I mean, i love waking her up (it's one of my favorite hobbies), but since i had been up since 830 (c/o that stupid dog Odin) i didn't think i'd be that mean.

I had a left-over hot turkey sammich with REAL cranberries for lunch, so the cranberries i didn't get from the night before were made up for then.
And then i waited, waited and waited for Jim to get back so we could catch the 7 back home.

He arrived about 2 minutes after 5, and we left pretty much right away. It took us a good 45 minutes to get to the ferry. Once we hit Ladner the snow let up and it was just rain all the rest of the way. I miss the snow. I love, love the snow.

When we got back to Victoria we discovered it was just wet over here, not really snowy any more.

Today at work i was only supposed to work til 2, but ended up being there all day til 6.
Tomorrow i'm working 11-5, and then picking up Kristi at quarter to 7 so we can catch the 750 showing of "The Curious Case of Benjiman Button". It's due to be fun.

Jeanette is hopefully coming over for new years, and then before work on the 2nd i hope we can hit up build-a-bear. It should be fun acting like 4 year olds together. :D

My work schedule for the next week is going to be crazy, but worth it when the little piece of paper written with those numbers come in.

I set my clocks early cause I know I'm always late

2008-12-25T14:38:00.000-08:00

So,I guess today is the day if you celebrate it. And it's actually two days in one: christmas AND the 4th day of hunnakah.

I just wanted to drop a line and say I wish ya'll a merry Ho-ho and a happy holidays.

Todays winter/holiday song is The Academy Is's "Winter Passing", and when I get a chance ilater I'll edit the post and get it in here.

Its hard to believe that its actually a white Christmas, the one and ten, and I'm moving next year. Figures my last christmas here would be unforgettable.

The one thing I would change this holiday though is quite simple: to have at least 10% of Tim Hortons open across canada, so that my travels on the 25th of December are a tad bit easier, not to mention tastier then the "proudly brewed Starbucks" on BC Ferries.

[edit Dec 27th/08 ]

Keepin' your love lockdown

2008-12-22T23:14:00.001-08:00

your love lockdown

I'm so tired of my loss-of-voice.
It's best described as Lindsay Lohan if she had swolled a crack pipe. It describes my throat perfectly: that shattered glass feeling.
I keep coughing every five minutes. I feel like i can't breathe otherwise. I'm pretty much choking on my own saliva, which it really boils down to.
I want to get better. But with my work schedule, that's impossible.

But the hours today went by fast.
I started at 4, and went solidly to 8, and only had to waste an hour. Even though there was plenty for me to do, i got bored as soon as Kovitz left. I felt horrible the entire time i was there, and will probably tomorrow and Wednesday to come.
But the mall is so random now... it's a typical Wednesday crowd, but instead of browsing, they're purchasing. Which should happen every day that i'm working, as far as i'm concerned.

Anyways, Jim attempted to make my aunts Mac and Cheese recipe. I think he put to much mushroom soup or possibly not enough cheese. It tasted alright for his first try at it. Better then what i would have made, that's for sure.

At work today, i went and hit up Starbucks for a tea.
It was better then timmies.
There, i said it. But for two reasons really:
A) It was cheap - a whole $1.68
and
B) It was green tazo tea. Which i love-love.

The night has been pretty quiet. I need to head to bed early so i can get up for work tomorrow.
930-4. Ick.

I hate Christmas.
I hate buying for people. They're never easy to shop for... Common' people, stop being so PICKY!

Rockin' Round The Christmas Tree

2008-12-21T23:25:00.001-08:00

Just cause i don't have one set up, doesn't mean i can't jump around in circles!
Cause i mentioned earlier, i'm in a weird Miley Cyrus mood.
Rocking Around The Christmas Tree: Miley Cyrus (and her two back up singers... haha)

I'm unusual, not so typical

2008-12-21T22:16:00.000-08:00

way to smart to be waiting around...

Something strangely intoxicating about Miley Cyrus in a blonde wig singing pop-songs meant for 12 year olds.
The song, i mean, not her. She's just a girl thrown into stardom.

Anyways.

Today was a snow day.
Not by choice.
I actually attempted to get to work, but the buses just weren't arriving/departing on time.
So when 1030 rolled around and a bus still hadn't showed, i texted Danny to let him know i couldn't get in.
I headed back up to my house, and fell asleep, and the dog did too.
Little did i know that Garble would find my Macbook keyboard totally comfortable and she decided to take a snooze while i wasn't looking.
When i woke up around 2ish, i found her sitting there, and my screen was looking very much so dead, and the "wrong password" screen embedded into the monitor.
After initially freaking out, i held down the power button for awhile, listen for the machine to stop making any noise, and then started it back up again.
Luckily it's still working good, or else there wouldn't be a cat walking around right now.
I would have shoved her outside.

Anyways, Jim was stuck in langford all night, which i think i mentioned, so when he finally got ahold of me i was happy to hear he was alive.
Eventually he had the truck undug from the driveway it was stuck in, and came and picked me and Miley up and headed to timmies.

While we were there, i had jim order (he has a bit more of a voice then i do) and while we were waiting a dude with a backho came in and ordered a coffee.
It was quite amusing to be honest.
I also saw a little chevy cobalt rental car sitting outside the door... I don't even know how that thing made it that far to be quite honest.

The rest of the day was pretty uneventful.

I'm working tomorrow, 4-9.

Errm. It's very white outside.
Almost as high as my boots! So cool. literally. But the snow is quite wicked.

5 days early

2008-12-20T22:19:00.000-08:00

This was going to be the Christmas day song post, but the way i'm going, i needed to open something early.
Fall Out Boy: Youle Shoot Your Eye Out
Know it. Learn it. Love it. Live it.

...still haven't received my package yet.

Dear Gravity

2008-12-20T20:21:00.000-08:00

You held me down in a starless city.
Tiffany Blews; Folie a Deux; Fall Out Boy

250 and counting...

So i've caught something.
It feels much like a beckett cold, minus the headaches.
It's more of a loss-of-voice deal. And it SUCKS!
I woke up yesterday, and it was like, barely there.
By the end of my shift today, i felt like dying.

It's snowing like crazy. It's hard to get used to it continously being cold. But it's like, i love it all. I love the crunch, i love the flakes, love-love-love the still.

Just sucks about the raspy thing i have now.

But work is amazing with all the crazyness.
I mean, the holidays are horrible for people, cause nobody is ever %100 perfect with their purchases.
But as i was getting ready to leave, Miel and Kovitz were telling me how impressed they were with me and my selling skills.
Lovelove.

Since Jim bailed on picking me up, i had to bus it home.
In the snowstorm.
I know, what the fuck.
So, i took out my anger and went to Bluenotes, and bought a hoodie impulsivley.
PLUS i wasn't prepared for snow, so i needed a hoodie or toque or something.
I went to the kiosk and got my shit together, and Miel got over protective and wrapped her scarf around me so i wouldn't be to cold.
She's way to kind.
But i have a funny feeling after i left, the mall probably emptied.

The buses weren't to bad... i imagine now it'd probably suck trying to get anywhere. The roads were bare this morning, and now they're icy, greasy and sticky.

...I hope Sean gets home alright.

Anyways, i'm home now. For awhile now, actually. About to devour some Dora the Explorer soup, and her pals, maps and Boots. (Yes, that's right, i'm eating Jeanettes Ferrets.
This is her blog:
http://quoteonquotemylife.blogspot.com/)

Mmm, soup. :D

Jeff, i'll make you a deal you'll never read: If you go to the doctor to make sure you didn't seriously injure yourself, i'll go and take cough/cold meds and get rid of my cough. See. not going to happen. Take it easy, kay?

Christmas Don't Be Late

2008-12-18T12:10:00.000-08:00

I knew it was the song to post because my dog was whining while it was being played.
Brings back memories of Alvin and his hula hoop.
Alvin and the Chipmunks; Christmas Don't Be Late

Someone call the doctor

2008-12-18T00:57:00.000-08:00

I've got a case of love bi-polar.

So I'm trying to sleep, but my head is filled with thoughts of christmas and sadistic little beings.

I'm thinking if I write what went on today, clear my head a little, 9:05am will come a little faster after I hit the feathers behind me. (I'm sitting in bed, clicking away on my BBCurve, so bear with me.)

Its snowing outside. Its really quite lovely, like T3 perscription without the dr perscribing it to you.

When I got to work this afternoon, (and I experianced 4 different weather conditions getting there.) I was surprised to see Kovitz working.
You see, it was supposed to be Ashley.
But, here's the thing: she was caught stealing and was fired, or more polietley stated, "Let go" around noon.
She was stealing wooden belts that weren't even out yet, and thought she was being clever by hiding them in her plastic lunch bag. Yeah, sure, stick it right next to the bosses jacket and hope he's not going to notice. Pssh.
Anyways, we're now down to just me and him again, and as long as they hire someone before my birthday they should be fine. If I have to work on my sweet 19, fuck, there's going to be some serious hell to pay.

Shortly after I started getting tasks ready for me to do in the afternoon Miel and he oldest showed up, and Kovitz and her went to Starbucks for awhile to talk it all through. I was left in charge of nine year old Miel, and she helped me ring orders through and wake up my imagination a little.

Around 415 mom and daughter left, and Kovitz stuck around a little longer to organise some things and move items around... He left at quarter to 5ish, and I actually did some of the work laid out.

The mall was fairly steady until 530, when the snow started to hit hard and many shoppers left the mall to get home safely. I still think its crazy how those in Victoria can't handle the 10ish cms we have. It seems like people are scarved the pavement is going to break like a fish pond and they'll drown in artic water or something - the 'walking on glass' attitude is getting old real fast.

After work, Jim and I picked up Sean from Liz's, and made the mandatory stop at Tim Hortons. The streets may be empty but that store is always busy, and, tonight was no better then others. We also grabbed a couple burgers from A&W for dinner, since neither Jim nor I felt like cooking. The only downer was the sell out of gravy, so there was no fantastic condiment to our fries.

When I got home I chowed down, obviously, and spent some well wasted time on the internet, checking out more on CFOB and Patrick Vaughn Stump's movie. It has a facebook fanpage and shit, with neat behind the scenes photos and character mini bios (a sentence telling you what the character is/ does/ who plays). I also found a potential profile that tricky fans around the world probably know about, and is probably fake anyways. I wouldn't add him if it WAS the real guy, everyone deserves their privacy, which is what real fans should think about doing. There was a lot of bashing on his girlfriend too, which is terribly unnecessary. No one has the right to diss another person based on things read/heard through the media, and it wasn't thr right place for such comments. It was really heartbreaking to read little tweens say nasty things about someone they don't even know because they're selfish brats who could care less about another's happiness.

It still snowing outside. My eyes are sore due to my lights being out and my keyboard/screen being illuminated and such.
The ultimate snow day- the mall being closed.

Aah, a girl can dream.

Nutmeg - John Legend

2008-12-17T02:00:00.001-08:00

Here's another holiday song for ya'll;
Nutmeg by John Legend

The Elfs Lament

2008-12-16T22:38:00.000-08:00

Cause i'm in a holiday mood, i thought, why not post some christmas music?
here's one for now, i'll post another before bed.
Barenaked Ladies: Elf's Lament

I Live Here:

2008-12-14T21:20:00.001-08:00

But it doesn't mean I like it

(Taken on my BB Curve; Dec. 13, around 1230pm, pre snow fall. But it was BLOODY COLD!)

Trying to make you understand

2008-12-11T23:27:00.000-08:00

Your on my radar, on my radar.

I worked 930-3 today.
Whoo.

But that's not the exciting bit:
I sent out Sashi's gift today!
And i'm crazy jealous about what's inside.
But the out side's pretty neat too: 13.75 in various priced stamps!
WHOOO!
I should have covered it all in 1 cent sheets, BUT it turned out with all the various sized squares for different price denominations.

Me and Jim did some running around today.
It was fairly boring.
Bought Christmas paper... whoo.
And a new shower curtain. double whoo.
... Linens and Things are going out of business,.. their loss is my gain.

i work tomorrow afternoon, 3-9.
Jims going to Abby for a party... wish i could go over to Aldergrove, see some people... oh well, maybe next year sometime.

Sean's mad at me.
All about the moving thing...
I wish i could just.. move... no drama. Just, up and leave. And take everyone i know with me.

Nothing to lose and its damaged cause

2008-12-09T23:20:00.000-08:00

Patterns will fall as quick as I do, but now

So, What did i do today.

Well, in case SOMEONE reads my blog, i can't say what i purchased.
But did buy a LOT of things.
Actually.
nono.
Jim did, haha.

I bought War Inc. and Katy Perry.
Finally! I couldn't find it in HMV for ages, and there it was, sitting in Futureshop all along.
=D

I work tomorrow.
930-3.
hmph.
Methinks i'll header out to bed after "Barenaked For The Holidays" is over.

I''m really getting into "Charmed" again.

Dumdumdum.

Lalala.

I can't decide what's worse:
Sitting at home, bored
OR
At work, putting up with prissy customers.

"I wish i could do better by you / Cos that's what you deserve

2008-12-07T01:56:00.000-08:00

You sacrifice so much so much of your life / In order for this to work"

City and Colour. "The Girl".
Google/Youtube, whatever, it's a beautiful song with a wonderful video by an amazing Canadian, Dallas Green.

Anyways, that isn't what this post is about.
This post is about something else.
What, i don't know.
A little bit of rant-rant-rant
a tiny bit of metaphor-imagery-shitness
and a whole lot of really bad grammar.

First off - to the stupid interviewer's who insist on thinking that dissing a bands fans is cool - it's not.
Secondly, WHY oh dear lord would you review a LEAKED album? Is that fair on anyone? Seriously.
...and to whomever leaked it - your a bastard for being part of a horrible plague that's making music suffer for your quick gain.

Work earlier was busy.
A wonderful combination of quick-thinking and customer service.
I dunno what we cashed out at- i left at 5 - but I'm sure it was an amazing night/day over all.
I just hope today is half as good. I mean, it's 2am now... if i go to bed when my body passes out, i should be running on straight up caffeine and sugar for a few hours, and then crash before my fingers hit the final buttons on the till.

I'm going to crash now if i don't go to bed.

I got my Britney Spears tickets.
I don't know how fast the show sold out, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't to long after mine were purchased.
It's going to be an amazing show.

Maybe something exciting will happen later, and I'll have loads to talk about.
But i think it's time for me to go to bed.
Sleep is a calling, and i want to pick up the call.
[enter the matrix, what-what, lol]

From Williams blog:

2008-12-05T23:57:00.000-08:00

“I know the slips from lips to lovers mainly happen at night.”

“Its coming.” I hate saying that… as if I’m alluding to something unbearably far-reaching or utterly ground breaking. Sometimes I outreach my expectations just beyond my wingspan. Sometimes I reach a little further. Sometimes words are not enough. Other times, they are all I have. There is a pillow with a name on it, but its not mine. Rose petal carpet patterns in hotel hell. I hope for nothing else but to see your face in Denver, but I’m destined to wait and wonder wander. I will love you always, and never.

To the first part:
Sensuous words to the kids from the 'burbs who long for nothing but a sweet, firey night.

The second:
Nothing is ever what you want it to be: either bigger or smaller or hardly noticed, usually the unexpected happens, thus it should be highly regarded as the most probable outcome.
And honestly, this is my unbiased opinion: your words- said, sung or written always conjure the nicest images, even when they're supposed to be unreal. You're a surrealist painter in the literate world.

Goodnight.

---

2008-12-04T14:00:00.000-08:00

this is how i spend my days off:

-Watch some tv

- Fiddle around on the interweb

- eat food

and chill with my dog, Miley

The Raconteurs

2008-12-02T02:05:00.000-08:00

The Raconteurs
Old Enough

You look pretty in your fancy dress
But I detect unhappiness
You never speak so I have to guess
You’re not free.

There, maybe when you’re old enough
You’ll realize you’re not so tough
And some days the seas get rough
And you’ll see

You’re too young to have it figured out
You think you know what you’re talking about
You think it will all work itself out
But we’ll see

When I was young I thought I knew
You probably think you know too
Do you? Well do you?
I was naïve just like you
I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to do
Well, what’s you gonna do?

And how have you gotten by so far
Without having a visible scar?
No one knows who you really are
They can’t see

What’s you gonna do (what’s you gonna do)
What’s you gonna do now
What’s you gonna do (what’s you gonna do)
What’s you gonna do now
What’s you gonna do (what’s you gonna do)
What’s you gonna do now
What’s you gonna do (what’s you gonna do)
What’s you gonna do now
What’s you gonna do now

The only way you’ll ever learn a thing
Is to admit that you know absolutely nothing
Oh nothing
Think about this carefully
You might not get another chance to speak freely
Oh freely

Maybe when you’re old enough
Maybe when you’re old enough
Maybe when you’re old enough
You’re not free
You’re not free

----
Fastest four minutes of my life.
I always stop whatever i'm doing when this song comes on.
I love these guys.

"You've got me poppin' champagne

2008-12-01T00:59:00.000-08:00

I'm at it again / Caught in the moment / But not in the right way"

Who lord. It's December 1st.
there's only 23 shopping days (including today), so i guess ya'll should get on it.
And the more people that are in the mall, the less Christmas music i can hear, so please, go shopping, for my sanity, you must!

Ok, so lets catch up here.

How are you?
Break anything?
Miss me?

I took an unintentional Blogging Hiatus.
Seriously. I didn't mean it, it just sorta happened.

Last week i had amazing Karma.
On the morning of the 22nd, it was pouring rain, and i had to bus to work.
So i get downtown, umbrella-less, and waited for my bus.
I hadn't gotten my new jacket yet (which is fabulous, btw) so it was pretty damn cold.
But then, out of nowhere, a Out Of Service came up and offered to give rides to anyone who needed one going down Douglas.
So, yay, that included me. It was pretty wicked. The whole bus was mine, except for one other person, and it was so neat just to chill out and watch the buildings pass.
The driver stopped every third stop or so, and went way above the normal bus speed. Pretty swell, like a behind-the-scenes of a bus route.
Pretty Fun, haha.

The past few weeks have been pretty boring.
Kovitz hired someone (yayy)
[sidenote: Confessions of a Shopaholic cardboard cutout advertisement at Silver City!!!, OMGOMGOMG.]
She's nice. She's fun, likes to work... much like me when i first started.
We get along really well.
I miss Maddy though. She always has something un-real to say.

Christmas music is horrible.
Whoever decided this holiday called for cheer was deeply overrated and can just... disappear into a dark corner or something.
I hate Christmas. Yesyes, insert "Ba-Humbug" here.

Coles birthday was the biggest thing to go on in the past little while.
He's 16 now.
Now he's an official teenie bopper. Whooo.
Last weekend he had a dinner at BP, which was fun. The service sucked, way below par, resulting in us all (Sam, Taylor, Coles mom & dad, and the kidlings) missing our movie, which we rescheduled for yesterday.
They ended up buying "Tropic Thunder" and we all watched it (well, Taylor and Sam had to go home at 11) and laughed hysterically.
I miss hanging out with Cole. He's pretty much on the same mind track as me at all times. It's creepy, but great, cause my head is really complicated most days.
ANYWAYS,
Yesterday, after work (130-6, yuck), I met up with Taylor, Cole, the parentals and the kidlets at the theatre and caught the 745 showing of Madagascar 2.
O.M.G.
Amazing. Hilarious. So many adult jokes, but it's great for the littlies cause there's ha-ha humour too.
Afterwords we all took a drive around Victoria to see the pretty lights all lit up around town.
And sang Christmas carols.
Yes, i feel sorry for those who could hear me.
They dropped me off at around 11, and me and Jim went to pick up Sean at Tillicum who had gone to the movies with Liz.
It's so cute seeing those two together =]
Anyways, from there we went to timmies, and we came home and i made dinner.
Whole wheat spaghetti and meat sauce. It was served by 5 to Midnight. So i guess it still counts as dinner. haha.

Today i had to work 11-5.
I found many things to do, like finding things for them to restock tomorrow.
Danny's coming back soon from Florida, i think Tuesday, so we need to get the store into fit-shape.
The mall was buzzing.
One of the things i hate most about Christmas is the un-jolly attitudes of people.
No, i freaking serious. No one knows what they want for people, or they're so specific they get mad when i don't have what they want. I'm as much as a people pleaser as the next person, but i can only fake a smile for so long before i want to tell people to fuck off to "Little Drummer Boy" and leave me alone.

Jim picked me up at 5 and we headed to Sears to go buy a fake Christmas tree, since they were having one of those amazing SEARS DAYS!! Sales.
Yeah, all that red signage is terribly wasted.
Plastic trees are so expensive. Like, honestly. Who'd spend $150 on a tree that looks like it fell out of the lawn-chair rejects departments, thrown through a shredder, and glued back together?
So we voted to buy a real tree this year, and next year, when we're sitting in our Ottawa apartment, we'll find a plastic one then.
I wanted noodles for dinner, so we went to Noodle Box, where i bought the family food... and i didn't even end up getting noodles. Cause i ordered the wrong thing. Wow, i'm special.
It was good regardless, but that just means i'll have to go sometime next week when i'm x-mas shopping and get noodles then.

I can't wait to buy Sean, Jim, and everyone Else's gifts.
I got Warren this hardcore Star Wars shirt from The Gap. It's so cute, i wish it came in my size.

Last Friday i stayed up until 330 watching IV, V, and VI in rapid succession.
It was awesome. I started to drift off a little at the end of Return of the Jedi, but i really have never liked that movie. I mean, it's amazing, but it's not my favorite of the three.
Personally i would rather live on Hoth then on a wooded plant with Ewoks, even though they're terribly cute.
Star Wars = <3

I finally admitted to myself i was jealous of Aldergrove for a reason beyond my usual selfishness...
Maybe it's selfish still, but i'm jealous that they get to see him every day, while i'm stuck over here...
I hope i can sneak off Alcatraz here and see this kid before the new year... that'd be fantastic.
Not to mention there's a few others i need to say "Merry Happy Chrismaskah" to and hand presents to.

Argh, i hate the holidays... thank god they're almost over.

"If I had a million dollars,

2008-11-18T23:42:00.000-08:00

We wouldn't have to eat kraft dinner
But we would eat Kraft Dinner.
Of course we would, we'd just eat more.
And buy really expensive ketchups with it.
That's right, all the fanciest Dijon ketchups! Mmm.
Mmm-hmm."

Tehehe. Favorite part of that song.
So today i made a list.
a "50 Random things" list.
It went way past 50 though, so i guess i could call i could call it "3/4s of a 100" List.
I dunno.
But i thought i'd put some down...
1) Friends. Well, they're important. How else would have i get through high school?
5) Hurley Hoodies. They're zipppy, the're pully, they're over all just NICE
14) Sharpies. They're like the weapon of choice for arm drawings. TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS!
15) Aveda Haircuts. They're beautiful. Just Lovely.
17) Cities, particularly:
18) Vancouver
19) Tokyo
20) Hong Kong
23) Live music. Nothing better then feeling the speakers throb though you.
26) Obama <3
29) Coffee. It's necessary for me to function, and with all the different flavours as the holidays come, mmm.
31) My MacBook. It's smarter then me.
33) Vintage hardcovers. Whats not to love?
35) CFL
37) BlackBerries (Both the phone & the fruit)
38) Tetris. It's the only game i know how to play!
39) Four Letter Curse Words
43) Irregularities. Cause nothing in life should be perfect.
50) MSN

---

2008-11-18T23:32:00.000-08:00

Bedouin Soundclash
Until We Burn In The Sun (The Kids Just Want A Love Song)

"I don't care what you think as long as it's about me

2008-11-17T21:15:00.000-08:00

The best of us can find happiness in misery."

That's been stuck in my head since last night.
The final TRL was on, and being canadian and not getting MTV2 (the channel it was aired on here, up north) until quite recently it was the second episode of the show i've ever seen.
And it was quite amazing.
Even if Sisky filled in for Pete, honestly, that's fine, cause i love myself some TAI.

Anyways, today was fairly lame.
Headaches all day, and crazy stomach swrils... the worst kind.
My dog wouldn't shut up. I could walk her around the block ten times and she still wouldn't be happy.
What a drama thing she is.

I have today and tomorrow off... i don't know what i'm going to do with myself.
Tomorrow i'll pick up my jacket i guess... I love it. Perfectly warm... leather... mmm.
Yeah, that PETA guy from the Cobra show would hate it. But i'm sorry, synthetics won't do it for me anymore.

It still gets me that Molson Canadian uses the "Canadian" name as a way to sell beer to us. I'm sorry, they sold out hella long time ago to a company down south.

Watching heroes.

I talked to Sashi. I miss home. I miss her. She misses home. To think we're the only two who really "got out" of Aldergrove is really weird. I mean, she by choice moved halfway across the country, and i'm doing it next summer... So scary. I'm going to miss home more, but so much more is back there. So, so much.

"Discover music again. Discover again"
Sirrus radio really got smart this time.

Kay, dammit. He's in the back of my head. How'd he get there?!

"The songs you grow to like, never stick at first

2008-11-15T01:07:00.000-08:00

So i'm writing you a chorus, and here is your verse; "

It's flipping through my head like a classic b-side... even though it was more of a simple LP.

So the past few days have been amazing.
Especially Wednesday.
He built me a bear and named it Captain Awesome.
As soon as he left, i felt the urge to run after him, but i didn't, i wanted to call, as say "hey, turn around".
But he got home safely, and i'm going to have to live with an msn life for the next little while.

I've started planning out my 19th.
I begged, pleaded and finally won over my dad to purchase me Katy Perry tickets.
LoveLove.
I was never really into her... i could have cared less for her music, until her second single, which won me over.
Hot N Cold is pretty much one of the hottest track ever.
Try and go purchase her CD. You can't. Cause it's not there. It's sold out.
CAUSE IT'S AMAZING.
anyways....

So. Um, yeah, i guess that's it.
Jim leaves today for Ottawa. No, he's not house hunting without me, it's business. I cannot wait for house hunting. JUNE BITCHES!
Haha, it'll be hard moving... especially now with these little flutters... but it's for the best, i think i want it more then i need it.

Sashi, i miss you. i wish i was having as much fun as you were earlier. Well, actually, i was with you, having that fun.

"So high but no chance, my little chemical romance

2008-11-12T01:12:00.000-08:00

Left a bad taste in my mouth"

Listening (or i guess reading) Sashi's exclamations about that anime series Jeff burned for her.
He's to nice, and he's horrible at hiding it. it's quite fantastic, really.

Anyways, i got my hair trimmed...
i'm not really happy with it. I think i'm going to go get it fixed later at Aveda.
I should have just done that in the first place.

I have to work tomorrow afternoon (well, technically this afternoon, but lets ignore the date at the top of the post, shall we?).
I was supposed to meet up with Jeff, but i haven't heard a peep since i told him the news.
Fuck.
I was really looking forward to it.
i have this little oath of silence about him in my head: only answer what is necessary, and nothing more.
ANYWAYS, i have to tell the story or else it makes no sense.
So we've been planning this get together for the past few weeks. And as the date grew closer, my inside excitement grew, and then today, when my boss tells me he can't rearrange a hair appointment... he must be in his late 40s, and getting his hair dyed... i kinda went into this slump, and haven't come out since.
Jim said i looked "tired", like "i had just gotten up" or something... yeah, it felt like i had been rebooted.
ANYWAYS, i haven't heard a single word from him... so it's fairly disappointing and upsetting and i dunno.
Didn't realise how much i was looking forward to it.

It's raining. The pitter patter type.
The best type, when i close my eyes, i can picture home.
And the horses. The trees. The rabbits, chickens and cows.
I miss country life.

If i was home it wouldn't be so hard. No one seems to grasp the hate i have for this town. I hate the way it moves... from one season to another... the people, the attitude. There was a study, i think a year or so ago, and in it, it says that people who live in Victoria are the unhappiest in all of Canada. I wouldn't be surprised if it was true. The isolation one feels, it's starts to get to you, and no one wants to relate when they do. I think that's why everyone lies aswell - keep minds buzzing.

"And she will be loved.

2008-11-10T23:21:00.000-08:00

She will be loved, oh oh."

Mondays.
I hate Mondays.
Regardless if i work them or not.
Which i didn't.
But i did have to get out of bed, which is like work...

So today me and Jim planned on an amazing shopping adventure.
Which didn't happen. (shocker)
Well, we did go shopping.

I woke up around 11, and discovered that no one was home. The main reason i woke up was because my poor puppy was whining. She tends to do that if she is a) alone and b) in her kennel.
ANYWAYS, so i picked her up, plopped her beside me, and let her chill out and fall asleep while i watched Ellen on tv.

Around 1230 Jim, Sean and Jim's friend Randy (who arrived last night, and is staying until tomorrow) came home, and Jim headed upstairs, and Randy went to Canex/CPOs mess.
Sean went on the computer, but whatever. He was happy about seeing Rise Against, and sad because Liz is in Miami, having a great time, and they're texting every five minutes. Ah, Young Love.

At about 130/2, i finally got bored enough to start bothering Jim to start our day.
We headed out to Mayfair, and was there by 3.
First stop was Danier, where i finally got service by their staff... Even then it took a good ten or so minutes for them to figure out i wanted something, and that indeed, i was going to purchase it.
I picked out a jacket, and tried on every size they had, picking out the best fit and gave it a good check over before i said I'd take it. Which is a good thing, because a shitloads of thread were lose or undid, and the seamstress in me took one look and came to the conclusion that it wasn't worth my purchase of $249 if it was only going to fall apart by next Winter. So they called the Nanaimo store to see if they had an x-small available, and indeed, they did, so they took my vitals and will call me as soon as it comes in, hopefully Friday. I love it so much. It's warm, and has removable fuzzy insides for those days when i want to wear, say, a heavy wool hoodie underneath.
So i put down my ten percent, and walked out happy, but empty handed.

From there we went to Off The Wall, where i grabbed a reversible Hurley hoodie.
I found a grey/red/black argyle one, which i asked Jim for Christmas.
That was a simple enough buy, and fairly fast as well, so we went for a wander around.

I needed gloves still, so after our brief stop at the food court (WHOO STRAWBERRY FROZEN YOGURT) we headed to Ardenes, where i couldn't decide which ones i wanted. We tried the bay even, looking for a pair of perfect fingerless gloves, but with nice, warm insides.
With no luck, i wandered over to the perfume section and inquired on how much my Hilary Duff perfume was, and discovered another sent in which i adore: Juicy Couture.
So pretty. But SO expensive. For the largest bottle it's $100, smaller, $85.
It smells so good though, and the gift set we could have got for $95, which would have been nice. Jim said he'd talk to Santa...Hmm Kay then.

We took a quick look at HMV, and i asked Danny about working the morning shift on Wednesday, and he said he'd look into it.
Apparently he's hired someone.
So this could either be the break-or-make of my career there...
it's like getting a puppy while still having the old dog in the same house... jealousy for the most part. I just hope she doesn't take all my shifts.

We ran over to Futureshop so Jim could buy a new mouse.
It's red and shiny, much like mine. But the most important part is: it's not. I have my mouse back. Whoo.
It was fucking expensive though. $75 for a bloody wireless notebook mouse. I think i got mine for cheaper... and it's PINK :D

Back at home we hung around and watched TV, and i've starred at this LCD monitor for awhile.
I watched the Sarah Conner Chronicles for the first time in ages... I dunno, the format still is a little to weird for my liking.
Heroes was amazing. Hiros "vision quest" into the past was neat, just for Mr Petrelli to come to Africa and be all Boogey-Man is a cool twist. Although it felt a little repetitive, and redundant. They could have made a cool interactive feature or something, but whatever, it was their choice to wait two weeks between this and last times episode to keep us entertained.

I'm chilling out in my Hurley hoodie, and it smells like the floral, Girlie scent of Juicy Couture, since i threw a paper-sample-smely-thing into the bag with it.
I love it though. totally condridicts my indie-emo thing I've got going right now (Clandestine Eastern Sunburst hoodie tee, TAI SWG Tour Shirt over top, flared jeans, black Hurley reversible hoodie, UP, a durr)

Tomorrow I'm getting my bangs cut back in, and a small trim to get rid of the frizziness.
nothing opens until noon, since at 11 the whole of Canada will be silent for a minute to honor the fallen.
I bought my poppy two days ago at a local Timmies. I have a habit of losing them when i walk around. It's sad, the litter of poppies one seems to see at the end of the day. They'll be no blog, since it wouldn't be right.
But hold your head down, and give a minute to reflect on the kids, parents and grandparents you know/knew who risked their lives to keep our lives as cushioned as it is now.

...My sister didn't know who Givenchy was.
I almost died.

It's A New Day

2008-11-09T20:02:00.000-08:00

It's A New Day - Will.I.Am

useless.

2008-11-08T23:41:00.000-08:00

these are just some things... i dunno what type of things.
i'm so tired i thought i'd write down what i could babble.
---
Cookie Dough Haagan Das pretty much rules icing on birthday cakes.
---
I could break into two, but what would two of me accomplish that one of me obviously cannot?
---
I think i miss you. I think i'm not sure what i want. And i think that a big deal is little in proportion to Bulls player anyday.
---
slice me, dice me, serve me cold,
dry ice melts instantly; my humour is the oxygen; don't breathe to much, you may suffacte
---
i caught a cold, took meds, and it's finally gone... sercretly i wish i was still sick
---
Oooo, Ahhhh, Ah-ah-ah-ah.
---
Am i.
No.
Are you?
No.
Is he?
Yes.
Quite possibly...
---
Dangerous. Really, really, dangerous.
---
Although those leaves have turned to red,
and concrete yellow roads beckon,
i still want green pastures,
and apples that are de-cored.
some days i think i'll wake up
and see a familiar lawn
a friendly knock at the door
and a smile i would kill for.
but it's never going to be that way
the life i lived has long gone away
and years can pass
i would never see the outside
until i had a chance to look in
---
not like you could give me what i wanted.
not like i could try to be something special.
i'm not. i'm not. i'm not.
so you said you would mean it -
the lies, those words, repeated:
"You are, You are, You are"
just to make me smile
i feel it wasn't worth it
nothing was, nor is, could be.
some low self esteem for exchange of a heartbeat
not a proper bpm, just a lousy excuse for i am
break me, tear me, please shred me
twitter me a beautiful good bye,
for it's coming,
cold, small hands, that shiver,
they're mine. they're mine. they're mine.
pretend to care, and every message sinfully sincere
---

"Beautiful but you don't even try

2008-11-08T19:31:00.000-08:00

Modesty is just so hard to find"

So, news news news!

I got a raise.
I guess that's the biggest and most important.
$9.50... WHOOP WHOOP.
I guess Danny realised how important i am as a worker... now if he would only learn how to spell my last name, lol.

Jim went to the Trans Siberian Orchestra last night.
Apparently it was quite awesome... i dunno, he's playing some of their live stuff on youtube right now...
I don't quite know what to think of it... i'm just in that mindspace i guess.
my new word: mindspace. yeah. it's fairly self explanatory. use it if you want.
I had to work, hence my non attendance.

At work, i had an excellent sales day.
And at the very end, Randy come and visited me for awhile.
Bought me a calendar too.
THANK YOU!
And we chatted it up... When he left he sent me a text saying he wasn't feeling so good.
Somehow he caught like, a flu bug thing. I didn't catch it, as far as i'm aware, so i sent him a "get well" and carried on with my cold trek home.
Where my house was empty. i hate empty houses. I stayed up late, playing tetris. How relaxing, and kinda loserish, eh?

this morning, i woke up at 930, took the dog out, and watched american tv.
this was, since i was up so early, spider man and inspector gadget. whoo...
i didn't realise how un-kid friendly that movie was until now.

at work, i twiddled my thumbs, and sold plenty.
jim picked me up, we went to tims, i bought an umbrella (since the wind broke mine) and headed home.
I really haven't moved since.

Jim took my mouse. Cause apparently he needs it more then i do.
Thank god it doesn't happen often.

I added twitter. Whoo.

Goodnight

2008-11-07T01:03:00.000-08:00

Dreamin' - Weezer

"Pretty woman, walking down the street

2008-11-05T17:22:00.000-08:00

Pretty woman, I'd like to meet"
I can't believe my mall plays this shit on a continous loop.

Looking at williams blog I'd figure I'd post something, since he took time out of his busy day to say hello, a not so famous person like myself should do the same.

I'm currently standing in my little box of a kiosk, surrounded by hollow voices and gleaming floor tiles in various shades of pink and grey. I'm bored (obviously) and the cocktail of Illy Espresso and Day quil has worn off... And it was working quite well. The sony store has Iorn Man on a loop inside their windows, for people to stop and stare to watch it in wonderful blu ray glory.
Nothing in life should be so clear as to see Robert Downy Jrs wrinkles beside his eyes.

People are pacing up and down, and going into stores absent mindly, as one tends to do on a wednesday night.
I feel sick to the core and cold to the bone; I spilt the Illy on my yellow TAI hoodie. Here we could insert the phrase sarcastically "drink much?" And receive a sarcastic glare in return.

Its dark outside. It looks below freezing, even though I'm sure its slightly above. But I have no doubt in my mind its windy.
The other day I found out the real purpose we all have screen doors- contrary to what my young mind believed the proper term for them are Storm Doors and they're supposed to keep the wet out... That doesn't happen when you have a dog... When a dog has to go a dog has to go, and mine doesn't care what the weather is.

I was just asked the stupidest thing not to long ago:
"Is this big enough to wrap around as a sarong?" *holds up sarong*
"That is a sarong."
"It is? It looks to small"
*i proceed to unfold it*
"It looks seethrough."
"Ma'mm you wrap it twice, and its black, it'll be fine."
"Well, I'll take it into consideration, thank you" *walks away*
*points tagging gun at her once she's reached out of earshot, and starts makes laser gun noises in her direction*

I love my job I love my job I love my job I love my job I love my job I love my job.

...Then why do I have to keep telling myself that??

Ooh dear. I'm sick. I want sleep. And a hug. Perferably from people I haven't seen in awhile. Oh, only if, only if.

!

2008-11-04T23:11:00.000-08:00

THANK YOU AMERICA

You Made Change Happen. For that, I thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

America deserves a leader just like that.

BARACK OBAMA, Presidential Elect 2008

January 20, 2009

CAN'T WAIT.

"So this is me at my most honest

2008-11-04T02:31:00.000-08:00

No ego, No Gym Class status, just Travis"
I've had GCH stuck in my head for the past 48 hours now... various songs, but mostly "Kissin' Ears" and "new Friend Request"

Yes, it's 2:34am.
I have no the idea why i'm up.
There's really no excuse for it. I'm like, wired for sound.
Maybe it's the lack of NyQuil in my system, but if i take it i won't wake up any time within the next 12 hours.
It could have something to do with all the sleep i had today.
I took a nap waiting for Jim to wake up, finally getting mobile around 830pm.
It's odd.
My phone has been so quiet. It's scary and weird but so nice to know no one cares... Yes, i know, people care, but as of today, no body bothered me and my invisibility was at it's peak.

I owe Jim money, he bought my bus pass.
He's going to be up in 4 and a half hours.
Something tells me i'll have to sneak upstairs to go to bed.
I shouldn't be awake. Why am i awake?!

...
dum dum dum.

I really like the new video for The Cabs song "Bounce".
Patrick at ten seconds in is priceless... Being all "Andy Warhol" incognito is awesome.
I want to have a paint party. Kinda jealous making.
I hear they're coming with Hey Monday come February. I wanna gooo.

BTW today's November 4th.
If you live in the states. And you're not voting, i will hunt you down and force you to go to a polling station.
Look at canada: only 40% or something small like that came out to vote at our last federal election.
An expected 80% are supposed to show up tomorrow.
I hope you guys vote right.
I'm rooting for Obama. He should have had a rally up here, just for us to show our support. Canada could win it given the chance... haha.

i'm listening to a informercial... about a Tony who helps people loose weight to fit into old jeans, or they buy them new ones.
I'm fricken bored.
I'm going to try sleeping.

GO VOTE!

PURCHASE

2008-11-04T00:53:00.000-08:00

btw, they were selling this at the concert.

the show before us probably ran out, since it was Chicago and all...

Purchase online here:

http://madonna.fanfire.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/fanfire.woa/wa/product?sourceCode=MDNWEB&sku=MDN45082

OR at the next show, if you're going.

"Makin' babies, buying you a mercedees

2008-11-03T23:19:00.000-08:00

All begins with kissin' ears"
that song has been stuck in my head for about 48 hours now. Kinda crazy.

Good news ya'll - i'm feeling hella better.
I woke up this morning and was like "i don't need to pills to breathe. YAY!". My cough is still there, and just to be safe, i'm going to take some tomorrow if i work, if not i'll just sit around and do exactly what i did today... NOTHING. Yeah, score one for me.

Anyways, i bet ya'll are wondering how the Madonna show was.
Um, lets see.
Madonna. Live. In Vancouver...
Doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out it was AWESOME TASTIC OF FABULOUSITY.
So, here's the play-by-play of what went down on Oct 30, 2008.

I was on the 11 o'clock ferry heading over to Vancouver from Victoria. And i guess it must be said at this point i was still on a TAI/Cobra high from the previous week, so i listened to Almost Here, Santi & Fast Times At Barrignton High from island to mainland. As it worked out, i landed to the final bars of "One More Weekend", and was able to make the shorter portion of my adventure to the soundtrack of "While The City Sleeps" and "Viva La Cobra".
Ok, so it wasn't short at all.
The 620 from Tswassen was packed, and we left 15 minutes late because the driver wanted to cram an extra 8 people onto a bus that was already full. And the thing is, we don't live in Japan. People in North America have personal bubble issues. Soo, anyone standing front of/ behind anyone was feeling slightly awkward. That bus ride took a half hour, and by the time i arrived at Ladner exchange i had missed my Scott Road bus by 5 minutes, and the small group of 6 of us had to wait an hour, in the rain, for the next one.
On the bus this creepy dude talked to me, and got off in some random industrial area just before the train. Tyler called me just before i arrived there, saying he'd be home to let me in, so yay, score.
Anyways, i scrounged up some change to get onto the train, well, when i crossed the one stop for fare boundry lines anyways. I arrived at my aunts house at three, and waited the 45 minutes for my sister, who's lovley husband picked me up and dropped us two off at Production.
We stopped at Commercial and got something to eat before the show... I was so hyper, and i retold the story (very loudly at that) of how me and Jeanette stalked the hot dude from the TAI show. The guy behind us was amused (and actually pretty hot) and i heard him laughing.
ANYHERMS. From A&W we headed on down to BC Place, and after much confusion on what line we were supposed to be in, we finally got inside and bought our shirts. Of course, we found like the table with no one there, so it was a less stress get-out-of-mob type. I got the grey shirt with the itinerary on the back, in a small...
http://madonna.fanfire.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/fanfire.woa/wo/16.13.5.1
It's on there somewhere if you have the patience to find it. My sister got the techno colored one with the tour itinerary on the back. I purchased us the tour books too, with it's heavy stock, glossy, picture fantasticness inside, and my sister bought a shot glass (and its like, a 2oz) and a magnet for my Aunt as a thank you.
So we found our seats, (They were amazing!) and waited for the show to start. Since i purchased the seats as singles, since pairs were pretty much non existent to get, my sister was row 8, to the far right of the stage, and i was about 30 or so rows back, and tad more centre.
The show didn't start until 20 after 9, and since there isn't an opener for her (i mean, she doesn't need one) it was quite entertaining watching the Dome slowly fill up. And i'm sure she was sitting backstage, hearing the numbers come in, waiting for every seat to fill before she made her grand entrance.
And let me tell you, it's pretty hard to top that.
The lights go down, the video screen lights up, and the square, cube-u-lar structure, lights up with images of a candy production line... almost tim burton/willy wonka like. Of course she opened up with "Candy Shop", while sitting on a marvelous throne, and it all went more uphill from there. The set, the songs, she was definitely in her top form.
And it's like she was performing on her anger, her hatred towards her divorce, and it was wonderful.
She's always been the one to say "fuck you", and if she could invent a word that hurt, that stung more then that, i'm sure she would.
Time flew by so fast, and at one point, while she was standing on a darkened stage with a spotlight just on her, she looks at us all and goes "That fucking clock has been staring at me all night, do you want me to play another song?". This was at 11. Yes, at 11 we didn't want this to end. From there we had the 50 thousand people duet of "Like a Virgin", and moved on to the final four or so songs of the night.
The crowd loved every minute of every second in those hours we had the wicked privilege of sharing with her. And when it was all over (which was i think was the living meaning of "Leave them wanting more") the house lights came back on, and the square cube which she disappeared into flashed the words "game over" (ok, one more thing, it was soooo ReBoot like...) and the crowd sang along to the "Holiday" track, which was playing loudly as well all left.
On the train all i wanted to do was sleep, and take my boots off, since my feet were KILLING by this point, and we arrived at my aunts house shortly before 1.

The next morning i was up early, getting on the 9 so i could be at work by 2.
-sigh-
By the time i got to work i had taken two doses of DayQuil (which is totally my favorite get-rid-of-sick pill) and was pretty much out of it.

Anyways, the past few days i've lived in that Day/Ny Quil daze, and i'm happy to say rest finally paid off, and i've caught up on all my sleep, so i should be feeling better soon.
The weirdness about me being all sinus cold was i never got a fever. Or if i did i never noticed.

So today i lazed around, did nothing, all that fun stuff.
I worked hard over the weekend, from what i can remember, and day light savings went on without a hitch.
Argh... ok.

OH, ok, what's the deal with Hey Monday's CD not available in Canada? Seriously, if i order it, it's going to be twice as much as it is in the states, plus i have to pay a importing fee... ARGH.
I may succumb and purchase it on ITunes, as much as i want a hard copy, i highly doubt i'm going to find it anywhere anytime soon.

Toothpaste for dinner

2008-10-29T20:57:00.000-07:00

cause i'm sick, and this is oh-so-true:

Unhealthy Possibilities

"Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart

2008-10-28T23:07:00.000-07:00

I'll be the one to hold the gone"

Today was my day off... YAYY.
But it's over now... BOOO.

Anyways, i was supposed to get many a things done today, but all that was accomplished was me getting out of bed.
And even that took some effort.
At noon.
haha.

Yeah, so i got up around noon thirty and discovered i had these wicked bags under my eyes. Lame sauce, for serious, i rarely get them.
SOO i decided it was in my best interest to stay home and not do anything drastic, like, say, get my haircut and jazz.
Tomorrow, there's always tomorrow.
Anyways, good thing i stayed home... I flipped on the tv and found much-on-demand, and lord and behold, Fall Out Boy was co hosting. So, like, total score one for me.
Anyways, that was a pretty amazing hour, followed my random channel flipping, and then at 4 i changed it back to watch their live concert. Which was also awesome, cause like, they played a bunch of songs off of TTYG, and like, that album makes me so happy inside and gives me goose bumps.

ANYWAYS, after that, me and Jim went to timmies, went shopping for some food and picked up Sean from Zellers.
Which basically is a routine regardless if i'm working or not.

BUT i was offered a job at Save On Foods today... 9.75 and hour + benefits.
Tempted as i am, i'll approach Danny about it when he gets back to see if he feels like losing me.
Cause honestly, i'm underpaid, and for all the family bull shit i put up with at this store, i should get more then this.

While at Zellers i fell completely in love with a pair of boots.
And they're on sale too!
I guess i'll have to wait for Sean to not be working, and then purchase then with his discount (hello total of 40% off!).

Umm....
i re-joined Monday Eyes, after leaving the group since the journal posting option for me wasn't working.
I have some serious poem-like-songs-types in progress... every night i add/remove while i'm drugged on NyQuil to get the best results. Honestly, it's a quite lovely feeling.

"Far, far away; find comfort in pain.

2008-10-27T23:02:00.000-07:00

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble."

Today, today, today...

After having such an amazing last week, today, as most Mondays generally are, was unfuffilling and lame.

I woke up in a good mood, was fairly energetic for having to work an 8 hour day, but, alas, after talking to my brother, about things that i'd rather not mention, i went to work angry and quite annoyed and upset with myself.

I don't want to discuss it, and the two kids that were there after work to make me happy again did an excellent job.
I miss you Sashi. I forget how awesome you are.
Jeff, thanks, hahaha. :D

I made Spaghetti for dinner. Usually this wouldn't be worth writing but i had an adventure doing it.
After finding the can opener, which always finds its way to the bottom of the cutlery drawer, i used it to open the spaghetti sauce can. But, when i went to go grab the lid off the can, i managed to cut my finger... of course a slew of words came out, followed by a tiny fit of hysertics, and ran it under cold water and applied pressure.
Naturally i told Jeff as soon as soon as i had put a piece of paper towel on it, cause i wanted him to know how special i am... Or i guess, accident prone i tend to be.

I think its the cold. It makes me emocidal.
It's like... yeah.
Anyways, it's an amazing cut, halfway across my right index finger... hopefully it'll leave a scar, i don't get enough of them for cool reasons like that.

Anyways, my cold has gotten to the point where i've boughten drugs for it.
I hate sneezing every 13 minutes or so... Not cool.
So Jim got fed up, told me that "No rockstar cold is worth it" and bought me DayQuil and NyQuil liquigels. Oh well, i'll start taking them tonight.
Also, Halls cough drop were purchased for the dry throat.
SUrprisingly enough, i don't have a fever, so, YAY. I do have wicked headaches, but as long as i don't work tomorrow i should be fine.

...I need to purchase mittens.

Tomorrow should be fun, since it'll be my first actual day off in awhile.
I have to go to the bank, argue with the tellers to let me have my whole check, get my haircut, and purchase Katy Perry & Hey Mondays cds. If anything at all gets done, it will be the last two. I still haven't caught up on all my sleep yet, but i'm getting there. Me and Jim bought pillows at Zellers yesterday, and i think i can hear them calling me. Yay for feather filled softness.

The Madonna concert is on Thursday.
OH i'm excited. Even though everything relaxing about the whole thing fell to shit, it's going to be a wicked show regardless. I mean, come on, it's MADGE.

"You change your mind

2008-10-26T20:02:00.000-07:00

Like a girl changes clothes"

So, just to let you know imma working on a blog recap ness of the TAI/COBRA shows, but its taking longer then expected... I have seem to caught a bug... A dry cough, sneezing, running nose veriety. I dunno what the Beckett was carrying, but I've figured out that the night I met the boys of TAI was the night I must of caught this... I woke up thursday fairly unamused to this conclusion, and the fact that its fucking freezing isn't helping. -sigh- but whatever, life moves on, and there's a NyQuill/DayQuill medicine for when I truly want this thing to go away.

I'm writing this from my blackberry, which somehow survived two pits in the matter of three days, waiting for my brother to come out of Zellers, where they're having a store meeting, which is evidently running long.

I broke my value village shoes from last year today. It's a shame but they lasted two years, and are wearable-ish if I really am that desperate. Plus it gives me an excuse to go buy shoes, and being a girl, this probably the best thing one could hope for.

I keep staring at the siggy's that I'm keeping in my clear blackberry skin. Its fucking magical. <3

*EDIT: There's the gigantica of a blogpost below this. I'm tired. Check out the YouTube videos.*

"I never heard the words that were spoken

2008-10-25T22:36:00.000-07:00

with rumored nights, with the rendezvous
I never thought the whispers were true 'till now."

So, here's two recaps: One of The Academy Is that took place of Oct 21 2008, and Cobra Starship on Oct 23, 2008.

First, TAI.

I arrived at Croatian around 430, shortly after Jeanette had called to let me know that they were leaving Aldy to meet me there.
I sat and watched the volunteers take down a tipi that had been set up for an unspecified reason.
I helped. I had to. It felt bad watching and not participating.
Anyways, Jeanette arrived and after we came to the conclusion that we had no sharpies between the two of us, we headed down commercial to the dollar store to buy some.
We ended up "stalking" (following) a really hot member of Carolina Liar down a few blocks then we needed, and sharply turned around and went into Dollar World (or whatever the hell its called).
We purchased sharpies, or the knock off of them, and went to go buy caffeine substance, since it was cold.
Well, i was cold. Jeanette on the other hand felt like a heater plugged into a wall.
Anyways, in Starbucks, the guy behind the counter made Jeanette blush, and we left. It was great.

Back at Croatian, We sat on the stairs and watched the line to get in form around us.
Slowly people started to trickle around, and soon there were a hundred kids or so milling about waiting for the doors to open. Anyone who has seen a band live at Croatian knows that the doors always open late.
When they finally did, we got inside, and debated weather or not to purchase our merch then or later... and we decided on the later.
In the crowd of people we waited, and before we knew it Hey Monday was out and they put on an amazing performance.
I really love Cassadee's voice. Truly awesome. We decided to go get our merch from there, and good thing we did, there was like, nothing left. I basically jammed $50 in front of the Merch Guy for TAI and snagged the last yellow hoodie they had.
Jeanette was talking to Jack the entire time.. i don't know how she can do that, randomly walk up to people and have a decent conversation. She asked him for me if i could get a picture with him, and he gratefully obliged. I heart him, when i grow up i want to be him.
We put our new purchases away (Jeanette got the white pullover "We The Kings Own Your Face" hoodie) and went back into the pit to get a decent place for Carolina Liar.

Neither me nor her had heard their music before, so it was a really good first listen for us.
The crowd around us knew more about them then we did, that is for sure. I'm glad i had the chance to hear them that way vs on a CD. If they ever come back to Vancouver, i'll totally check out their show.

By that point we had somehow got to the centre of the pit, and for We The Kings we were in great standing-dancing view.
Jeanette has since grown a huge crush on Travis, and randomly yells "Save the redheads" whenever possible.
It was our second time seeing them live (The first on the Cobra Tour earlier this year) and they failed to unimpress. Especially when they announced they were filming the live video for "Check Yes Juliet", the crowd got super psyched and was totally into the whole shabam.

When TAI cameo out, i totally freaked and had a fan girl moment.
I had somehow by this point managed to score a barricade spot, and basically dead centre of Mike Carden, which was a great veiw, i'm not going to lie.
The show was fantasically amazing, and just as great as the last TAI tour. William, Sisky, Carden, The Butcher and Chislet are all great at what they do, and i wish that like, there was a live DVD of all this somewhere. YouTube videos do not do them justice at all.

After the (almost to short) set, we all headed outside to go find them all to get pictures and things.
There was a giant crowd waiting outside one bus, which me and Jeanette shortly realised wasn't TAIs when a) we saw Jack packing the other one and B) Travis walked out, and many girls started squealing in delight.
Jeanette bailed on me, leaving me to get a picture of me and Chislet by myself, but was back in time for me to give her something for him to sign, since i was to scared to go back and ask him after the picture. He was so quiet, and very tired, i didn't really want to make him mad if i could avoid it.
While waiting for a signature from William, and there was about 6 or so of us left, Bill went inside the bus, and returned, along with the Butcher.
I have this thing where i really don't like asking people for pictures and autographs, i'm just crazy shy like that, but while waiting for Bill we heard him talk sternly to the crowd around him and was so mellow and crazy assertive at the same time.
I told Jeanette that he could be a kindergarten teacher and she agreed...
And after i got my picture and signature, and was waiting for the Butcher to finish up with the very giggly girls in front of me, she booked it back to him and told him what i had said... which made me embarrassed even though i was well out of sight.
The Butcher is amazing at everything: Drumming, artistry, and it was great meeting him. His picture of him and I turned out well enough, same can be said of me and Bill and me and Chissy.

ME and Jeanette somehow managed to catch the last train out of Commercial to Lougheed and since Production is like, one stop before that so we were good.
We waited at Mac's for her mom, who got lost, and picked us up so i could grab my things from my aunts and go out to Aldergrove with them.

The next morning me and heather were supposed to surprise Kristi together, but since communications are fairly lame on both our parts, it didn't happen that way. Still, Kristis WTF Face was brilliant to see first thing in the morning.
I went to Jeanettes Bio class and learned something, which was quite amazing that i even stayed awake... i had a habit of falling asleep in the one back home.
After class i headed out and met up with heather who was across the street, and we went on our usual way to timmies, where we chatted and drank yummy coffees.
We headed back to the school and met up with Kristi at Lunch and hung out with her, and asked her if she could miss last block, so she phoned her mom and she said yes shortly after she figured out i was out there along with heather.
So me and Heather let Kristi go to English, and we wandered around for an hour killing time.
The library is fun when you're on a coffee high.

Anyways from there we went to Taco Bell / KFC and ate some food and talked like crazy 12 year olds... even though that would be over estimating our maturity level, and headed back to the school so that Kristi could go home.

Jeanette hung out with her friends for like, an hour after the bell rang, and eventually i got bored so i left and went to hang out with Heather some more.

By the time i had left there my head was full of ideas and words, which hasn't happened in so long, and was writing in my phone the entire walk up 272nd.

I got back to Jeanette's and sat for a few, and Kyle showed up, shortly followed by Ashton.
They all stuck around for awhile, and i fiddeled on my Computer, talking to Sashi and watched Jerrid play Halo for awhile.
Needless to say, it was a long night. And then Ashton came by at like, 1030ish and hung out til about midnight, which was pretty funny.

That same night i managed to somehow get all my TAI pictures up and video as well onto Facebook and YouTube, so there they are there in the "Fun Times" box.

Thursday i was supposed to hang out with Jeff, but I ran into Heather at about 9ish and she was going to the doctor, so i told him what was up, and was going to honestly try to make it after her appointment, but I ended up taking her to the X Rat clinic in Langley instead. Oh, fun fun. Luckily he totally understood my need to make sure my friends are ok before myself, so i apologised and promised to hang out with him next time.
The whole ordeal took til about 1230, and by 115 we were back in Aldergrove, and hit up timmies and picked up Kristi from school.
We ate something quick at Heathers before i had to meet up with Jeanette at her school, and from there went back to her house to wait for her mom to pick us up and drop us off at Croatian for the Cobra Show.

We got there about 5, and the doors were to open at 6, which again, means twenty after, and there was already a gigantic line of doom so we decided to bail on our planned starbucks and wait in line instead.

I'm kinda glad we did. The thing about line ups... especially indie band lineups... is that its like a a little community where everyone belongs, regardless of your actual "clique".
So we met some new people, and signed at PETA2 petition against animal cruelty (And the PETA guy was hot, ok, so that had something seriously to do with it...) and eventually, miraculously, got inside.

The show started somewhat on time, and the first band, Sing It Loud was great.
I had never heard of these kids before, but what Gabe had told us later was that the lead singer had gone from Merch guy to Opening band in a few tours, so i think it was pretty amazing.
After them for Hit The Lights, whom were also fairly rockin.
The red hat the singer was wearing made it easier for a blind kid like me pick him out in the dark through my camera lense.
They put on a great show that really got the crowd moving, and once again me and Jeanette ended up RIGHT in the pit for the second to last show, Forever the Sickest Kids.
Their set was great, and the circle pit that formed was painfully fun to endure.

In between them and Cobra, the sound/techie guys played rap music, and the whole crowd got really into it.
At one point a circle was formed for the kids who had some crazy moves to show off could, and we all quickly got over it and moved on to throwing our hands up in the "ayre" and letting it "rock".

Cobra came out with a bang and soon the whole crowd was going nuts for the guys from Jersey.
I moved away from the pit, off the the left towards the fantabulous Ryland Blackington (whom i yet to have a signature of *shakes fist*) and enjoyed the sights and sounds from there.
At one my point near the end my metal cuff came off, which was quite sad, since it wasn't mine to begin with.
Anyways, my favorite part had to be during "Pleasure Ryland", the whole intro/interlude/wasting time while Gabe changed/ session. He's such a great kid, and so funny.

After the show (Which again, was like a giant techno sing along, and BTW i know and sang to Bobby Brown, Gabanti, i was totally around to know of that) Jeanette wanted to give Gabe her shirt she made, and since i woke up with the Nastyness of the cold, i really had no patience and couldn't stand sitting out there any longer.
The Guys from FTSK saw us sitting on the curb outside their bus and waved at us, which was nice cause i waved back and when people went to look to see what i was waving at, i looked like a loon since no one was really in the window.
So me and Jeanette got smart and walked inbetween the buses to go say hi to them, and got candy in return.
Jeanette handed her shirt to either Kyle or Austin... i can't remember who... and said goodnight and walked away.

On our way through the Bus alley way we ran into Nate from Sing It Loud, and Jeanette bought a CD from him... She thought he was hot, as he is, and we talked to him for a minute or two about how he also talks in Mellowtone like William Beckett... we somehow managed to say "its nice" in unison, which was creepy but totally awesome at the same time.

From there we went to Mickey Ds to get some food (and i kept thinking that the PETA guy would totally catch me and slap me on the wrists or something for eating meat) and headed for the train.

We got to Macs well before Danielle, and I bought my aunt some milk, and also a Red Bull and magazine for the next days ferry ride home.

I said goodbye to Jeanette (Who called ASHTONY as soon as we pulled up to my aunts door) and gave her a hug. I hope to see her again soon, i miss her like my right arm if it were missing.

The next morning i was on the bust at 545 with my aunt to catch the first ferry i could get to.
I missed the 7 o'clock bus from Airport Terminal by a half a minute... it pulled away as i was getting off the 100 from 22nd Street, and had to wait an hour in the cold for the next Tswassen bus...
i was alone for most of it, so i sang along to my ipod... mostly "fast times" songs, just because i <3 that album.

The ferry ride home was long, and i watched "Intolerable Cruelty" all the way.
On the bus to work i took a nap shortly after a very hot skater/nerdy hot guy sat down next to me.
I got off the bus at killed two hours at Mayfair before my shift started, and then worked from 2 til 9.
I nearly collapsed on my bed when i got home, but had to do internet things...

The past few days have been crazy, and work has been so stressful with Danny gone.
There is seriously no motivation between me and Maddy to do anything. -sigh-

A few more days until i go and see the Material Girl herself, Madonna.
Fairly exciting, my sister is counting down the days...
and my body is SO looking forward to another week with a lack of sleep.

If (You Hadn't but You Did) - Kristen; Two On The Aisle

2008-10-19T18:02:00.000-07:00

Lyrics:
There he goes as usual, my man.
Breaking my foolish heart.
I really don’t know what to do about him…
I’ve told my self I’ve got to do without him…
There he goes as usual, my man.
Tearing my heart apart. He’s made my life a mess.
I’ve got to do this I guess… Goodbye, Joe, from here I kiss you.
Goodbye, Joe, I hope I don’t miss you.

*Pistol sound*

IF: you had been on the square, and had treated me fair,
and we’d not had a tiff…
IF: you had not said I should go and jump right off the nearest cliff!
IF: You had stayed off the make, and you never had taken to coming home stiff.
IF: I hand not smelled perfume with a nasty unfamiliar whiff!
I’M GONNA MISS YOU BABY! THINGS COULD’VE BEEN TERIFF! Ah, what’s the diff…
IF: you had not had the cheek to stay out for a week saying ’back in a jiff!’
IF: you were not such a two-timing guy!
If you weren’t…if you hadn’t… if you didn’t and you weren’t and you hadn’t and you didn’t… but you have and you were and you went and you did, and so, goodbye!
IF: I had not seen you take Geraldine on the lake in your flat-bottomed skiff…
IF: You were not out with Sue with your arms around her bare midriff!
IF: I had not seen you pen sexy letters to Gwen in your own Hieroglyph… IF: You had not left me home when had two seats for South Pacif!
I’M GONNA MISS YOU, BABY! YOU WERE TOO DARN PROLIF! Ah, what’s the diff…
IF: You were not such a hound who, when game was around always picked at the sniff!
IF: You were not such a two-timing guy…
If you weren’t… if you hadn’t… if you didn’t and you weren’t and you hadn’t and you didn’t… but you were and you have, and you went and you did! AND SO, GOODBYE!
IF: When I asked where you’d been you had not cliffed my chin with a beautiful biff! Hey, IF: I had not always found purple lipstick on your handkerchief…
IF: you had not told me lies and then looked in my eyes with a smile beautif!
IF: when I caught you with Kate you had not said, “It’s of no signif!”
I’M GONNA MISS YOU, BABY! AND I COULD GET SPECIF! Ah, what’s the diff!
IF: The best years of my life weren’t spent as your wife with no marriage certif! IF: you were not such a two-timing guy!

IF you weren't; IF you hadn't; IF you didn't; IF you weren't; IF: you hadn’t; IF you didn’t; But you had

And then we coulda
And you didn't
Though you shoulda

If you didn't
If you weren't
If you hadn't
If you didn't
But you were
And you have
And you went
And you did
And so
Good bye
See ya later, Joe

One Week Six Days

2008-10-17T00:48:00.000-07:00

One Week && Six Days Until

Madonna

Sticky And Sweet Tour

Vancouver BC

October 30, 2008

Tickets $55.00/$95.00/$165.00/$350

Ticketmaster.ca

"Would you want me to go

2008-10-17T00:34:00.000-07:00

If you knew what i know?
If you knew what i know."
-Automatic Eyes, The Academy Is

Listening to Lenka on Leno and have to the conclusion she looks like Katy Perry and sounds like Fiest.
I don't know weather or not it bothers or intrigues me enough to keep pick up her CD.
The song she sang i swear was on Juno (web searching...nope)
Hmm, it's the same melody as the song Michael Cera and ellen Page sings... That's why it sounds so familiar.
Anyways, his guests tonight included Sen. Bid and Colin Ferrel (oddly enough, in that order).
Colin's a cutie, makes me want to go to Ireland and find me one for myself.
Biden was... interesting.

Work sucked.
Was long, but interesting with the whole MSNing of Sashi for 4 hours straight... until i got off work and my battery was about to die so i turned off that little application.
Jim picked me up and we went to Wal Mart, bought some stuff, like a toothbrush because i needed a new one, among other things of course, like the usuals.

We couldn't figure out what we wanted for dinner, and when we headed to timmies i came to the conclusion that BP was the best place, so, thus we had Boston Pizza when we got home a half hour later.
Twas good, really.
I've had enough white carbs for the next little while i think.

Anyways, going to bed now... Sean unplugging my computer while i was at work, and it was still in sleep mode, so the battery needs to charge...
And my phone aswell.

So, goodnight.

blackberry note 2

2008-10-16T00:48:00.000-07:00

Lying in bed and thinking; 20 years ago, could a new age teenager survive without a cell phone or internet?
My honest thought: probably not.
But many kids did, and the funny (possibly ironic) thing is as the new age quailty of living went up with technology, I don't believe us 21st century folk are really living. Observe: we spend so much time trying to live green, and perserve the earth, we're not really looking or appreciate it as we should. Politicians say that a green lifestyle is the right choice, but how many do you see taking a hike or going for a swim in a lake, when in reality they're running miles on a treadmill and swimming in chlorinated pools.
Now if you take away a teenagers ps3 or laptop for a day, they're lost. This for me was proven when the island lost power for a hour and a half and my brother went stir crazy, using his cell phone as a life perserver afloat a sea of dead electronic devices. When the lights turned back on, he plopped right down on the chair he had occupied so many times before and sighed relief, as if the world would never do such a thing purposly. I didn't watch the news todays, but I'm sure they still haven't figured out why it happened. I honestly noticed 20 minutes of the whole blackout, I chatted with neighbors and took my dog for a walk.
So knowing what I know now, perhaps life would be very boring in the 80s. But don't get me wrong, I'd survive. Who I'm worried about is those kids who don't know what colors leaves change before fallin, or that manicured lawns isn't what nature is.

I just ran out of steam when it was starting to get good. So with that, goodnight.

S.i.x./E.i.g.h.t

2008-10-15T23:36:00.000-07:00

For those of you who are counting....

6 More Days Until

The Academy Is

Bill And Travs Bogus Journey Tour

Croation Cultural Centre

Vancouver BC

Oct 21, 2008

(picture by Natalie Chow, http://carunderwater-x.deviantart.com/)

and....

8 More Days Until

Cobra Starship

Sassy Back Tour

Croation Cultural Centre

Vancouver BC

Oct 23, 2008

(picture by me, http://timmieHO.deviantart.com)

Tickets $24.99 / 18.50

Ticketmaster.ca

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2008-10-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

Congratulations Canada
On your new(ish) Conservative Minority Government.

The final numbers:
Conservatives: 143
Liberals: 78
Bloc Quebecois: 48
NewDemocraticParty: 37
Independents: 2
Green: 0
(according to NationalPost.com)

Those who voted: You now have permission to complain,
Those who didn't: Don't say a word, unless you want to be punched out.
Just for the record, i voted, so tell me it was hard, and come up with as many excuses you want, but i think if you really wanted to, you would have.

blackerry note 1

2008-10-14T01:12:00.000-07:00

"Through fire I stood by you and flicked stones into the ashes that were our despair. Sleepless nights on bamboo cots, mosquito nets and sheer sheets; this wasn't a story to tell when we got home, nor to mumble when we were alone. secrets behind transparent walls were evident, for you I'd smoke all of it, this was us with stars alone, making habits and etching them in sand with sticks hoping they'd never wash away."

I dunno what that was right there, but it's stuff like that I have buried deep behind my glasses, it needs to be edited.

So today is tuesday which means you have a few precious hours to make up your mind how you want to vote. I don't know who I'm casting my ballott for, I had made up my mind so early in the race that now that it's here, I'm doubting that it's right. This will not stop me from marching down to the polls tomorrowand marking an 'X' by someones name, I want my impulse to be heard, regardless of how stupid it is.

"This world can be so dark, much when you point that sparks

2008-10-13T00:52:00.000-07:00

If your not there for me then-"
Omg, so that's a lyric from a Hilary Duff song from the movie War Inc.
I know this is the second time in a few days i've mentioned this movie, but it's simply amazing, and the song, my goodness, it has to be heard, so... hears a link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPstSwXzrz4
Quite awesome if i do say so myself.

So yesterday i had a complete and total breakdown over nothing.
Ok, so it was something, but it's the same this that's been going through my head for the past forever now and every time i talk about it i just seem to go in circles and then determine that everything, indeed, is my fault and i am the sole responsibility for everything that goes wrong in my family's world.
Good thing i have this handy-dandy-Internet to write everything out on and outwards, for lack of a better phrase...
i think it's the redbull - although it gives you wings, it takes away other motor functions to do it.
not really defying gravity, more of ignoring physics...
ANYWAYS back to the subject matter at hand: I broke down, mentally, for the first time in MONTHS and i know it's only going to get worse as Dec/Jan/Feb gets closer and i draw farther and farther back into my feathered cacoon.

Work is taking a toll on me - and when friends on the east coast start to encourage switching jobs, it's kind of a wake up that i need to get.
I wish it was easier to tell my boss FUCK YOU and PAY ME MORE, since all i do is work, and he and my coworker get nothing done. I seriously bring in the money and don't even get a thank you.
That's depressing.

I did see Cole and Sam today.
They came by during my 11-5 shift, and talked to me for awhile.
I miss highschool.
Where's that Dazed in Confused quote...
"All I'm saying is that if I ever start referring to these as the best years of my life - remind me to kill myself. "
-Pink
Well, i hope you died, cause they were.
-sigh-

So my big news for the day is....
I GOT A BLACKBERRY.
It's quite beautiful. All streamlined and pink... yes pink... expect anything less?
Anyways, i was playing with it all day, because the battery had to be killed for the best full-battery charge to be offered. So i installed facebook for blackberry, msn messenger, and played brick for a couple hours. Jim bought one aswell - not pink - and i taught him how to use it when we got home.
Of course, Sean was not pleased. Is he ever? And after convincing him that, indeed, i did pay for my phone (which i will do on tuesday, and he doesn't need to know that) it seemed to take two notches off his 100 notched wall he sits so preciously atop of.
I'm seriously having issues with this kid.
I think this is the point in my life where i'm supposed to move out, or he smartens up. OR you know, we all learn to get along and be "love-love-love, all you need is love". Whatever.
Oh, he's 8 credits shy of graduating. And it's made me so disappointed, cause i know he could do it if he tried.

Oh, today is Monday, so HAPPY TURKEY DAY.
And to those working this lovely holiday: Enjoy your time-and-a-half.

Two days ago, Thursday i believe, my dog decided that my MacBook adapter made an excellent chew toy...
If i hadn't got paid the next day i think i would have thrown her outside.
So, when i came back Saturday afternoon, (because i went and saw the dismal defeat of BC against Edmonton, we won't mention that again) i headed to Futureshop and bought a new adapter for $99.00. And just because i'll eventually need it, i picked up Office for Mac too. In total, i spent $315 on two items that, if life was fair to me, i could have spent on something else.
Like TAI or Cobra merch.

I seriously need to hit something.

"I Like to shoot things"
"Why is it always the pretty ones :'("
OhMyDear, it's just cause deep inside we're violent little things who fight for an unachievable perfection.
And want you to notice that perfection is our middle name... regardless of it actually being anne or sue.

So... Urm.
I have seen so much water that i'm officially over it.
I have seen so much rock that it's quite possible i'll be the next to slide.

The power went out for about 15minutes tonight... (today, Sunday... whatever, i get confused trying to be all TIME CLOCK association, get with me or get a new set of eyes) I was so relaxed. I love quiet like that. So unpredictable and so controlled.
Apparently the whole City went out, which i noticed driving down to Wendys to get food - everything this side of Bay Street was either four way flashing or slightly off in the weirdest way.
Sean was lost without the power of Internet, or lights.
I think he was scared. I hate that feeling, so i embrace the oddness and turn it into quirky sporadicism.
I think i just invented that- Sporadicism.
Def: To be different, odd, or slightly off, and embrace it to your full potential while being completely illogical and objective at once.
Hmm, i don't think urban dictionary would accept it...

So, turkey day means cooking day which means me in a kitchen, on my feet, most of the day, cooking.
I live in a house of testosterone, so if nothing gets burned, i'll be fairly surprised. We bought a pre-stuffed Butterball turkey, and everything else is fresh, just the way it should be.
No canned cranberry sauce for me!
I still can't believe my sister can't make that... it's seriously not rocket science... no areodynamics or physics involved. It's as simple as boil, add sugar, mash and chill. Takes minutes and totally yummy.
I mean, the lines of a tin can seriously turns me off when i got to eat it, it has to be done the right way.

OH! i should mention my favorite part about Thanksgiving: Football games!
There's two games tomorrow afternoon, and i plan on sleeping somewhat in and catching the game just at kickoff.

They're showing how Tortilla chips are made on "How It's Made".
I watch way to much discovery channel...
OMG, has anyone seen the Discovery Commercials?
Boom De Ya Da... Kay, so i basically hum that song all day, and my favorite part is when you hear Adam (from Mythbusters) lighting Jamie's (also from Mythbusters) sleeve on fire with a blow torch. You don't even have to be in the room to know that Adam is seriously up to no good. He's never up to non-potentially-harmful things... hahaha. Behind the shield boys, behind the shield!

Ok, i think i'm done.
I can do this on my Blackberry, so don't be surprised if little notes that are not in the regular format start arriving.

Mondayeyes

2008-10-09T00:09:00.000-07:00

Im going to submit this there, even though its a michellism to the core, and no one will understand it.

I wrote it at work today, on a paper bag, and i didn't realise what it was until was about to rip it up.

And yeah, he wants to hold her hand,
Mmm, he wants to hold her hand,
She has a story underneath,
Her glasses hide memories;
Those she considered worth keeping,
Like that boy she fell hard for-
And that girl she knew could do more for.
Friends in closets, lovers in beds,
Facebook is about the numbers,
Not the friends.

"These friends, they don't love you

2008-10-07T22:54:00.000-07:00

They just love the hotel suites, now"

I Don't Care, Fall Out Boy, soon to be released Folie A Duex

I'm currently watch We Are Marshall.
I'm starting to think that it's not one of those half-pay-attention to films.
It's not. At all.

So another day off for me today.

I got out of the house and hung out with Amy around 5, hit up the DQ down by Thriftys.
We laughed, we talked, good times, good times.
Next week, we're sooo going shopping.

Tomorrow, before work, i'm buying Hey Mondays debut.

I had an awesome conversation today with Jeff.
haha, i dunno, half tempting to text him, and tell him so, the other half is telling me to let it be, and continue on tomorrow.

I don't want to work tomorrow.
I want a fucking raise.
It's not fair, an employee can be fired, and brought back with a 50 cent payraise, and i put up with the bullshit and get nothing.
Ah, life, i hope that this earns me major karma points.

So, 3 - 9, in my little box, there i'll be,
Tralala.

3 weeks til TAI
3 weeks / 2 days til Cobra Starship

"It's like Paris Hilton solving a rubiks cube

2008-10-06T23:54:00.000-07:00

It's never going to happen"

Omg, i'm in love with AMCs Celebrity Charades.
It's nice to see celebs doing something, for charity, that's fun, and not typical.

anyways.
what did i do today?
nothing.
what should have i done?
something.

I feel absolutely lost on my days off.
I don't know what to do with myself... I wander aimlessly and putter around my house, and try not to trip over my dog.
She's gotten big-ish. I mean, she's as big as she's going to get. She needs a bath. She smells like mocha... cause when i was playing fetch with her yesterday... in the house... which i know i'm not supposed to do, i knocked over my coffee, and she kinda decided to stand beneath the side table, and let the coffee drip on her. lol.
And i thought chocolate was supposed to be bad for dogs?

Sean came home on after his first date.
He said he "missed all the signs" and didn't kiss her. Well, that's fine. First dates. You don't need to kiss on first dates.
It's weird, hearing him talk about her...
He won't buy her flowers, or open doors. A girl likes those things. I guess Amys right, chivalry is dead.
Except i do know two guys who still do those things... Are guys just scared to be kind? Show emotion? Be different? Girls love that stuff.

Hmm.
"Roses are Red and Violets are Blue / Honey is sweet but not as sweet as you"
...
Could that still be sung truthfully, or have we moved into the world of
"No matter how much he might try to act, he know just where it's at /
I got that good good, I got that good good" ??

I dunno.
So, the rain is back, and it's early.
The wind too.
I hate Victoria.

I hate how my sister totally bailed on me because she doesn't have friends to watch her kids.
And she doesn't have money because she's buying things like magazine subscriptions instead of saving for holidays.
She has no right to complain when things are right in the palm of her hand, and instead of holding on tight, walks over to the garbage and carelessly tosses it in.
So if you haven't clued in to what i'm talking about, my sister has decided, or come to the conclusion that, she cannot afford the $85 for the hotel we were supposed to stay in when we see Madonna. I mean, seriously, $85 for downtown Vancouver is pennies... the ticket itself was double that easily. Which i paid for.
I make $8.50/h, and i have the money.
I have come to realise, unless you have money, kids ruin lives. Or at least make them difficult and very inconvenient.
I am not having kids. No sir, not me.
So after i had fought for my vacation on the 31st, my sister decides she doesn't do what we planned.
And instead of having the day off, like i bitched for a good two hours to have, i can indeed work. So come Halloween i'm going to be sitting in an empty mall, trying to sell tacky Hawaiian shit to ghosts of tourists past.

At least i know it will be a stellar show.
And i know that William and Gabe will make me forget the stupidity that's gone on in the past few months.

I'm going to go watch Katy Perry on Leno now...
Seems to be the only thing to do on a Monday night.

Cobra Starship

2008-10-03T01:20:00.000-07:00

2 Weeks 6 Days

Cobra Starship

Sassy Back Tour

Croatian Cultural Centre

Vancouver BC

October 23, 2008

$18.50

Tickets at Ticketmaster.ca

"I have the tendency of getting very physical

2008-10-03T00:38:00.000-07:00

So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle"

I was 12 when that song came out, in Grade 8, and about 2 months after the CD release of "Songs About Jane" Maroon 5 went on a world tour.
I remember the day after they came to Vancouver.
Everyone and their dog was wearing "Maroon 5" tshirts. And i was absolutely sick of hearing to them on the radio.
Funny, a few years later, i pick up "It Won't Be Soon Before Long" and fall in love with the band myself.
Way to go me and jumping on the bandwagon two exits and a borderline to late.

Anyways, what a long, boring day.

Last night, way late and to many pain-relievers later, i discovered my brother dear is in a relationship.
Now, that's a shocker for a couple reasons:
A) He's never really been a kid to say "I Like You" to anyone but the cats
and
B) I didn't think it was possible for him to find a girl.
Not that i didn't think there was one out there that could put up with his unpredictable nature, but he's a 17 year old boy who obsesses over video games and manga, and is scared of moths and hobos.
But he did, and when i clicked onto facebook and saw "Sean McCann has changed his status to "In A Relationship" i was quite shocked. Considering he went with the whole tell-the-world-and-not-the-family routine.

Hmm, i need to meet this chickie.

I've never been one to be the protective older sister, or even ACT like the older sibling, but my sister-senses are kicking in and i don't want to see him get hurt. Not that he will. And he's still all to new at the game to understand much anyways. I'm sure they're not even holding hands yet.
... he's probably looking for the most un-cootie-way to do it.

Today at work i nearly fell asleep.
Mind you, if i did, i'm sure no one would have noticed.
I went and grabbed something to snack on around 630.
That's like the official mall-dead time.
So i wandered, took a 90second break and bought a kit-kat.

After work Jim picked me up, and we went and picked up Sean, after which we went to Timmies and subsequently, Subway.
Mmm.
I signed on to late, again, and did all my normal bookmark-click duties.

After awhile i got bored, and since we own no good movies, i tried to find "War Inc." on youtube, which turned up nothing.
So after about 15ish minutes of www searching, i found a streaming video of it in three parts, all, weirdly enough, on yahoo video (which is generally good for not pirating things and catching illegal going-on on their servers.) But lucky for me they hadn't caught it, and watch the movie in great full screen awesomeness.
John Cusack is a brilliant actor.
I have a weird crush thing on him. I don't understand it quite myself. It all started when i first saw him in "Serendipity" with Kate Beckinsale so many years ago on TBS. That movie still makes me laugh and sigh at all the right parts.
Anyways, it was an excellent movie, quirky, dark, edgy and overall wonderful to watch.
Hilary Duff, who is known for her bubble-gum image, manages to portray a sexed up pop star from the middle eastern province of Turaqistan, (which doesn't really exist) very well, and after awhile you forget you are watching the woman (which, evidently, Disney should start imaging her as) who played Lizzie McGuire for so long. She's underrated in most roles, and should, after this, only go for the ones that are on the gutsier side. If i ever see her do something boring again, i may have to stop watching her movies.

That took most of my night, i do have to say.
From working a 3-9 shift, to coming home, chowing down on a subway sandwich and drinking a tim hortons mocha, the last half-dozen hours or so have been so dull i could (and almost did) gnaw my knuckles.

I work again tomorrow, 3-9.
Hmm, maybe the kings of the sony store will loosen up a little, and put something interesting on the tvs so i have something to look at, other then the guy who looks remarkably like Chris Evans and works at HMV.

The Academy Is

2008-09-30T00:43:00.000-07:00

3 weeks.....

The Academy Is

Bill & Trav's Bogus Journey Tour

Croation Cultural Centre

Vancouver BC

October 21, 2008

$24.99

Tickets at Ticketmaster.ca

"The Room Was Silent

2008-09-29T23:32:00.000-07:00

As We All Tried To Remember
The Way It Feels To Be Alive"

i've been listening to a whole lot of Maroon 5 lately.
I dunno, i just randomly clicked on their CD the other day on the way home, and i started jamming out on a very crowded 620 next to a man who, coincidentally, look much like Adam Lavigne.
Oh well, life is grand that way.

The football game, if you were wondering, was a complete blowout.
Well, we knew that walking in it was going to be.
If i were to quote the two "men" in front of me on the ferry:
M1: "Who's playing?"
M2: "BC vs Hamilton."
M1: "88-2 eh?"
M2: "Well, at least we'll win this one."
Yeah, i gave a little chuckle, considering eavesdropping is rude, lol.

So, about halfway across, i started dissing Kiera Knightly, cause i honestly don't like her acting.
I dunno.
Anyways, as i was talking (loud and obnoxiously, as par usual) this 13ish year old girl gave me the nastiest look, like i was dissing her mother or something.
I had a whole list of actress in my head ready to go if she wanted to say something (eg Joan Cusack, Nicole Kidman, Hallie Barrie, Scarlett Johansen, Nathilie Portman,,, ok so the last one is a little Star Wars biased), but she didn't, and went back to playing on her cell phone...
*side note, what the phelps is a 13 year old doing with a phelping cell phone anyways? she probably has facebook too... and myspace... and nexopia...*

On the way down Robson, we hit up one of the sushi places... for $8 we got 12 pieces of freshly made deliciousness.
At the game, Jim and I hit up the BC Ferries booth the get our free ride home.
That's right people, take their survey, and you get a coupon thing for a free one-way anywhere to any where.
And that, the Lilydale free food kiosk was raided, and then we entered to win a beautiful custom Harley they're giving away.
We sat down on a bench outside the stadium to eat our sushi before we went indoors.
Inside, we got our noodles and completed our unusually asian-themed game day meal.
Mmm. So good.

Overall the game was exciting. Although Hamilton was desperate, they didn't really try (or so i felt) so we really kicked them back to Ontario with no ego left intact.
We won 40-10.
And Printers wasn't playing... speculation by sports columnists were saying he was scarred to play against his ex-team after his brief stint down in the states (he played in Kansas)... the official statement from the team was he had a funny knee.
Hmm, right.

On the train home, we called Kyle, and we waited for him at Lougheed so all three of us could hit up Tims. Which of course, was delicious.
I was crazy tired, and Kyle hates it when i'm tired, so he's all like "Do you want snackage from Macs?" and i'm like "only if you're paying" so he said sure, resulting in him purchasing a bag of chips and salsa, and Jim grabbing chips (we got scoops, he got those touch-of-lime ones, ick) and cheese dip.
When we finally arrived, i chilled for a minute or two, and watched some random movie on TV, and tried to ignore Odin, who, although is completely adorable for a boxer puppy, is a tad on the evil-biting-jumping-assaulting side.
The salsa woke me up, and needless to say i crashed shortly after Kyle and Jim put on the older version of "Gone in 60 seconds".
Kyle says he likes it cause there's hippies in cool cars...
I told him if i wanted to watch hippies, i'd put on Dazed and Confused.
Which he agreed was a better movie by far.

The next day i slept in, cause, as i learned before leaving work Saturday, Madison wanted my Sunday. So i was like, sure, if Madison wants to work it, i won't rush home for the 11am opening.
So I got up around 1120, dressed shortly after noon, and ate waffles at 2.
Cause my aunt is cool like that, she saw me pacing and said "Lets make you waffles."
I Madly Heart Her.
During the making process, i called Jeanette, and had an epic 42 minute conversation on my Celly, cause it's LOCAL there. WHOOOO. lol. I love our conversations. They're so random and full of nifty.
Anyways the waffles were apple cinnamon. Mmmm. Jealous? you should be, they are by far the best homemade waffles on the west coast.
After we all had our fill, Jim and I decided to head for the ferry, so we did.
We got to airport station around 430, and waited a half hour for the bus to take us to Tswassen.
When we got there, we learned there was a 6 oclock sailing... which is weird... and got on.
We ate the buffet, where i ran into Chealsea... and Jim and I pigged out on numerous goodies.
Both me and Jim stayed away from the chocolate cheesecake... it's so decadent that it just sits in your stomach for hours and leaves your brain hurting from the sweetness.
We docked at about quarter to 8, and headed to pick Sean up from work.
He called when we were 5 minutes away, thinking we were on the 7, and when i told him to hold on tight at Zellers, he did, and there he was when we got there 8ish minutes later.

At home, we all kinda bummed around, and then Jim woke up from his food-coma and drove us all the Wendys (who would have though that at 11 on a Sunday night?) and got Sean some food.
When we got back i checked my email one last time and headed to bed.

Miley woke up at 9, and thus so did i, cause in the mornings i'm the only one home.
So i puttered around, took a nap on the couch with the dog (cause at 10 she crashed. GRR.) and took a shower too.
Around 230 Jim came home, cause we were going to Duncan to go buy me cow boy boots.
Naturally, we didn't leave til 4, and after the stop at the bank, we reached Duncan at 20 after 5, 20 minutes after the store closed.
Oh Well.
I had this wicked headache all day, so by this time i was ready to cry cause my head was pounding. The winding rounds didn't help at all... even the delicious views (yes, views of the country side are delicious to me) barely seemed to matter.
So we stopped in Mill Bay, grabbed a tims, wandered over to the nearby Shell station and bought some crazy Tylenol... like the most crazy headache - migraine reliever.
I took two of those (which, if you wanted to know, contains 65mgs of Caffeine each) and a sip of my coffee...
About an hour later, while we were shopping at thriftys for dinner, it finally faded to oblivion.
But now it's coming back.
I dunno what my problem is.
I thought it was just cause i was hungry... but i don't that's it.
Bright lights, bright LCDS... arg, i hate this HD World we live in. Nothing is supposed to be crazy clear.

Anyherms, after hearing about Sashi's day (thank god she's making friends) i felt really bad for living so far away.
It won't be to long til i'm out there... at least then i'll be in the same time zone and able to hear things minutes after instead of hours.
I miss her.
<3

On the other hand, i had another great conversation that will leave me smiling for the next 4 hours or so... or until my sleep gets to the point where i'm so in there deep, i can't hear my phone go off... Which actually happens alot.

Tomorrow i work 130-530.
Can't wait to think of a new way to entertain myself.
...

"I'm Just Hopelessly Hopeful

2008-09-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

You're Just Hopeless Enough"

It's been, what, two hours since you've signed off, and i can't imagine why you keep leaving me hearts.
They give me jitters.
Thanks.
I hope this isn't something terrible, And my head isn't playing a game again...
Like last time
Cause i'd hate to be faking it. Not to you.

"And I'll Be Waiting

2008-09-24T23:21:00.000-07:00

Everlasting, Like the Sun"

I bought a rubiks cube today.
Well, i got Jim to buy it for me, as i was working and all.
He did use my debit card, so technically it was my purchase.
ANYWAYS.
The reason i bought it was because, last night, at Cindy and Kristians place, i played with Madisons for about 4 hours and didn't get bored. I mean, seriously, nothing EVER holds my attention for that long, never mind something that only costs ten dollars at ToysRUs.
So far i can get all but one square on one side, and then i get totally screwed and all that hard work disappears in three moves.
OH Well.

Today at work... it was un eventful.
Danny drives to Staples. That's what i learned today.
It's across the bloody street, but whatever.
And then he drives to go for a run by a lake.
-sigh-
The only excuse i can come up with for him polluting our air with Co2 is that he's American.
And even then that's a pitiful excuse. And a very un-canuck one. Sorry.

When i got home, i fiddled around more with my Cube.
I realised that i'm going to have to go buy two more: one for each show in October for some certain singer-types to sign.
Possibly a camera guy as well. Tehehe.

So while i was playing with my Rubiks cube, i had a childhood memory pop into my head.
I was 6 or 7, and i was just spinning the same row, around and a around, trying to line them up, and i was failing, But having so much fun.
Which triggered me to another time, watching YTV's Hit List and seeing this video for the first time
Still amazingly creative, even by todays standards:

Unkempt and over caffeinated

2008-09-23T23:18:00.000-07:00

I walked the forty steps to the moon
You met me
---
Lately i've been obsessed with the song 40 Steps by The Academy Is.
Something about the lyrics are finally clicking, a year or so late.

So anyways, the biggest thing that's happened to me didn't even happen to me personally.
It's TV.
Oh god, new seasons, new shows, so much time wasted in front of a flat-panneled-pixeled-moving-picture-maker.

So last night was Heroes night.
And my god, was it awesome.
After being told it was a "great dissapointment", i went and watched it for myself, and i was totally suckered in.
All i can say is next week will be fantastic. Like usual.

My past two days off have been nice.
I havn't done anything i set out to do: get my hair cut, go for a walk, clean my room...
I slept in til noon both days, and played with my dog for hours on end.
Not to mention, i caught up on my Daytime TV watching.
MTV and Much Music.
I attempted to start reading a book, but i kept getting headaches.
i dunno.

I'm currently watching "Some Like It Hot" on TCM.
I'm not particularly fond of Marilyn Monroe, but i have a strange likeness for this movie.
Anything in black and white gets an instant prop in my head.
Ok, and the diamonds are beautiful.

"Like smoking without inhaling."
"So inhale."

A song:

A few more weeks until i can dance it all out
Get all those pretty feelings, throw them in the blender and jump until my feet bleed eighth notes and Beckett smiles.
And when properly blended with Gabanti smirks, it'll put me on a personal high for weeks.

4 weeks til The Academy Is / 4 weeks 2 days til Cobra Starship

So Give Up Every Chance You Get

2008-09-20T12:46:00.000-07:00

Just To Feel New Again.

Hmm.
Quick note before i head off to work.

I got Cole a job. Without even an interveiw. And he totally rejected it because he'd rather be a receptionist. Which he doesn't even have a job lined up for.
And its like, what the hell dude, i got you a paying, easy, job, put it right on your lap and you say no?
ARGH.
Kids. They don't know how good they have it these days.

Jims back from San Diego.
He left Thursday morning and walked in today around noon ish.
I like him being hme. Cause A) now i don't have to bus it to work on a saturday and B) he can get up with the dog at 4am when she starts to whine. For Serious, he sleeps on the couch anyway, right next to the kennel...
He brought me back The Sims from the Apple store, since i've been whining about getting a game for my Mac for awhile awhile now.
I hate having nothing to do when the internet crashes. It's also fairly handy to have when i'm on the Ferry... or stuck someplace i don't wanna be.

Err.
Sashis having a ball in Montreal (not like, a dress up, homecoming type) like, you know, an excellent time.
She's meeting boys from all over the place, which makes me really want to visit. Haha.

Nothing exciting on the whole boy front in my life.
Which i guess is fine, me moving and all come next August.
IRG. Ottawa. I'm excited. But i'm starting to have doubting feelings.

Me and Marcia booked our Hotel last night for the Madonna show.
The one on Granville was booked up, but we managed to get a room at the Sands location.
Thats ok. It's prettier there anyways. Davie street kicks ass.
And i haven't ever been to Stanley Park before, so this shall be exciting.
WHOOOO.

Ok... So, Tims, Work, Home... Repeat tomorrow morning. -sigh-.
I GET MONDAY AND TUESDAY OFF.
YAYYYY.

Can't sleep.

2008-09-17T23:35:00.001-07:00

Here's the thing.

I can't sleep.

And i know why i can't sleep.

It's him.

A boy. A boy that i kept talking to.

A boy that if one thing hadn't gone the way it did,

I wouldn't have talked to at all.

But something went sideways

And instead of me hiding behind

I was centre of the universe

...for a minute

Or so i assumed.

But here i am, 5 to 2 am

Talking to said boy

About absolutely nothing

Keeping me up and making my head float.

Will he ever read this?

Probably not.

If he did, could he figure it out?

Maybe.

But i know for sure there's a reason

For the jibber jabber.

2 am and i wanna say it

For i've heard myself admit it outloud

When no ones around;

To a friend who could take a secret to her death

Never to utter a whisper

I've written it in ink

Blue and blank on pink pages

Here i go:

I like you.

Don't Be So Scared

2008-09-17T23:35:00.000-07:00

We Will Not Leave
-Skeptics and True Believers

Um.
Update?

Last weekend,

Friday, me, Jim and Sean all went and saw the late showing of "Burn After Reading".
Awesome movie. Excellent black comedy full of quirks at quite... nervous making scenes.
Some of the best bits i can't say. But its a great show. Must see. Thumbs up :D

Jim and i went to the Football game on Saturday night at BC Place.
On the ferry over we ran into a friend of Jim's who was also going to go see the game with a buddy.
We showed them how to get there on the buses and what not... we were lucky there was a 601 straight from the ferry to downtown that night... we got to Robson and Granville with an hour and a half to go. So Jim and I wandered the tailgate party, filling out random contest forms and surveys... one gave us instant gratification of a free ride back on BC Ferries. Whooo...
Anyways, We won against Ssk, 28-23.
It was an amazing game. Action packed from the very beginning right to the end. Those are the games worth watching again.
After the game we headed into Burnaby and me Kyle at Lougheed station to pick up some timmies. Mmm.
From there we hopped back on the train, went to Macs (Jim wanted smokes) where I bumped into this kid i gradded with, and totally felt awkward, so i didn't say hi. (Long story short, i think he's kinda cute. I had the whole not-starring-but-really-am-thing down two days after i met him.) Apparently he's doing Physics up at SFU, so it would make sense i'd run into him eventually.
Kyle bought some snackage, and we went and waited for our bus.
When we got back to the house, we put on Dazed and Confused, and Tyler got home about a third into it.
I love that movie.
I fell asleep shortly after it was over.

On Sunday Me, Jim and Kyle hit up Metrotown, and wandered around for an hour.
Kyle had to return some headphones to Futureshop, but since they don't actually have any of that particular style left, he has to call the number on the side of the packaging and send them in to get new ones.
Oh well.
Me and Jim managed to get on the 5 o'clock ferry after having a minor scufuffle on the 100 Airport bus.
On the ferry, we watched whales from the Pacific Buffet and ate some excellent food.
We docked on time, but sadly i can't say the same going towards Tswassen. The 5 heading that was a good hour late leaving, so alot of passengers probably were severely pissed trying to get off this rock of ours.

Monday was the first full day of Danny not being around, So i worked it, 930 - 530.
Irg. What a boring night.
I think i would have gone crazy if i didn't have reading to catch up on.
So Monday night i sat around and twittled my thumbs.
I got a call from Madison around 4 saying she'd appreciate it if i could come in in the morning so she could recover a bit more from her dental surgery, so i said ok.
So with my one other day off being canceled this week, i headed off to bed fairly early, and went to work the next morning.

Tuesday wasn't so long... although just as dead as the day before, it was more bearable knowing that i was escaping come 130.
At ten to 2 i headed downtown and booked an manicure appointment. Which, as soon as i came home, i had to cancel.
Anyways, the afternoon proved fruitful: I bought the Heroes volume one aswell as Buffy Omnibus 1. For good measure i also picked up the new issue of Nylon, which is probably my favorite time-killing weapon of choice for reading material.
When me and Sean got home (Cause he met up with me after he was done school at the Starbucks inside Chapters) we kinda melted.
We were also informed on the news of us moving come August to Ottawa.
I'm totally stoked for it. I can not wait to get off this island, even if that requires a major detour to Canada's capital for a few years.
Sean, on the other hand, went totally overboard and ran upstairs, slammed the door, and moments later had Dragonforce and Greenday blaring. I started laughing when he put on "boulevard of broken dreams". I mean, seriously, it was to after-school-special.
Eventually he came downstairs, and i couldn't put up with his sourly attitude any longer, so i went outside and read half of the Omnibus.
I think i like comic books. I have a funny feeling that i'm going to be spending way to much time inside Curious Comics in the next few weeks picking more of these things up.
Anyways, when it got dark outside and i couldn't see anymore, i came back inside and went on facebook. Wow. Yeah. I'm predictable.
I went to bed earlyish, and slept in since i didn't have to be at work until 3 today.

Wednesday (today, whoop whoop!) i arrived at let Madison leave shortly after i went a retrieved food from Arbys... and since i knew the girl behind the counter, she gave me like, 60% off... my meal was only $3!
I worked til 9, and was mildly entertained for a little while by people watching, and even that got boring after awhile.
Jim picked me up, and we went to timmies where we learned that Barb was getting a new job soon... which means no more fantastic crazy-whipping-cream mochas and good-spirited lids. -sigh-
When Jim and I walked in the door, we tried to fix our little Internet problem that we've been having lately.
When i left this morning it wasn't working at all, and when i tried calling the house, we had no dial tone.
So we called our telephone provider and asked for them to come in and fix it, and while we were disconnecting and reconnecting wires to make sure everything was working, we somehow managed to make the dial tone come back and make the Internet work, so we canceled the appointment with mr. phone-fix-it, and settled down to a unhealthy evening on steak, previously frozen corn and LCD-QWERTY typing-Music listening-nonsense.
I took my dog out, and at quarter after midnight, its to unhealthily lit out there to see the stars.
I hate that. I miss Aldergrove, cause you can actually see stars. And total darkness is love.
Maybe i've already been reading to much Buffy...

Tomorrow i'm working 930-3, and coming home to make my Cobra Tee for the show in October.
Jims leaving at 7 to catch a plane to San Diego... he'll be back Saturday.
Dannys coming back Friday, god knows what the schedules going to be. Even with Madison's bs in the store right now, at least i know when i'm working, vs one in the morning text messages... *mumble mumble*.

Anyways, i've been writing loads in that journal...
So if i'm not writing here, the thoughts are down on paper, just not publicly viewable. If i had a scanner, i'd do it that way. But i don't. So BWAH, and humbug.

Special Happy BDay to one of my fave Timmies Ladies, miss Debbie.

---
From a page marked Sep 7:

I've written some words
About a boy
Put them in a letter
then tore them up
And subsequently mailed them
With a hope he'd put them together
Just to show
He knows
And that ripped sentences
Are completed
With a strip of transparent love

The AFA Cuff

2008-09-12T20:05:00.001-07:00

Do Something Meaningful. Purchase the AFA Cuff from Aldo today.
$5.
Seriously. Give up your afternoon coffee and give kids a voice.

From the website:
http://www.youthaids-aldo.org/act

By purchasing a cuff, you give these children a voice, a future and most importantly, you give them hope. 100% of all net proceeds from the sale of each bracelet will help fund YouthAIDS programs, worldwide.

For Her

For Him

...

2008-09-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

5x5
Wish this could get me somewhere other then two inches away from my computer...
and that's mostly just a seeing issue.
I don't have a title. Was typing this while talking to a friend. I don't think its necessarily inspired by, nor relates too- but it's weird that a happy moment could bring this on.

I'm a bag of fun;
With a hole in the bottom.
Slowly leaking over concrete sidewalks,
Leaving sticky patches
Of random incoviencencies.

But the grass is littered
With empty pop cans,
And paper plates.
Left over from
The previous night.

Let the earth cry in pain,
For i feel it too.
Sadly I belong alone,
Rather then grassy knolls
On benches built for two.

No fire to burn paper.
No wind to catch my kite.
Here i stand alone,
My head screwed on tightly,
Backward towards a devastating scene.

Before time could call me back,
My head was firmly on feathers,
While my body was buried under
Countless duvets and covers
At 3 in the afternoon.

Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you,

2008-09-06T23:19:00.000-07:00

And everything you do, Yeah they were all yellow
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Have you ever pondered about falling... up?
Not just like, jumping, but full frontal sky-diving-towards-the-stars-type motion?
I am. Right now.
I want to fall up.
I guess it would be much like flying (2nd Star to the right and straight on til tomorrow), But not really. Cause i'd have to apologise to gravity, and hope... cause hope is one of those things that hates me anyways.
Every time i hope about something, it seems to make whatever that was, fail.
And that's sad.
Same goes with faith though.
Maybe that's why it was so short lived to begin with.

Today was a good day.
I got to work thinking the worst, and it turned around.
I met up with Cole at 6, and we went to the movies.
I miss hanging out with that kid. I wish i was in school again, cause then i could see him everyday. I hate not seeing my best friends everyday. I mean, ones in Aldergrove, another in god-fucking Montreal, and then the third is in school for 8 hours, and his parents have issues with late nights on Saturdays. I think i'll just purposely start getting him into trouble. Maybe then he'll get an extension on his curfew... OR he could just graduate early.
Before we even got into the theatre, we ran into kids we knew - Gen, looking for someone, and Sam outside the movie theatre.

We went inside with Coles Starbucks and my KFC, and sat down just as the lights started to dim.
Yay emo corner.
The movie was good - there was a few Wizard of Oz jokes in there ("I bet that house that falls on you is a sexy house!) and the character of Shelley was very Galinda... God, i have no life.
Every time the song "Shake It" by Metro Station came on, i dance, arms flailing, that whole jazz.
I mean, it calls for it. [I found the Metro Station... SHAKE IT!... (god i miss you sashi!)]

When i got home, i took my dog out.
And i lied on the grass and looked at the stars.
I think i have a weakness for feeling small.
I got up though, thinking that the neighbors behind my house might think i was on something for relaxing on the grass in the dark. But honestly, its the only place dark enough to see the teeny-tiny ones that make that like "oh" thought leave, and my mind empty... Just completely drain and leave me in awe and wonder.

When i came inside i heard about Kristis trouble with her Juice Box.
I don't think she has an issues with Juice Boxes personally. They're very tricky things to get into.
I mean, they're hard on purpose so that when they're opened, you'll actually be thirsty.
I mean, if you were thirsty to begin with, you'd just grab a Gatorade. Its the forgotten demographic, but a very important one.
That was two "i means" in a row. Oh dear.

I have to work tomorrow.
11-5.
Whoo...
i have yet to call my aunt to inform her of my arrival tomorrow evening.
I haven't even found my wallet yet.
Maybe i should do that.

I think Sean should just...
*POOF*.
Turn into that ballgown that Galinda couldn't manage on her own.

I Watched From the Train

2008-09-06T01:07:00.000-07:00

Peterborough and the Kawarthas
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Can someone please tell me where i placed that piece of me that held onto things of crazy value?
I want it back.
Its a corner. And everyone knows that puzzled can't be completed without the outside edges done first.
Unless i'm not meant to be put together that way...
Hmm

I'm at that stage of sleep where i should have my eyes closed, snuggled deep beneath a duvet, ready to crash for another night into hills that are in focus, where glasses arn't needed and my nails are long and perfectly manicured.
HA.
Yeah, no, i'm up cause i'm stupid.
I'm stupid for thinking that if i stay at my job, i'll eventually reap in this insane reward.
Maybe a raise.
Maybe a "you know, i think you can have tomorrow off" kinda thing.
Whatever.

So i'm really missing Sashi-Delly sessions.
That's where i'd write my ism's and voice my opinions about life, that no one ever really cares about, except her.
I hate time differences.
Another thing:
I hate not talking to Ian either.
Not that its on purpose. Busy lives call for adaptation.
I'm just really bad at the "adapting" bit.

"Save Me From A Villainous Imagination"

Sometimes i wish nothing ever happened. That way there would be nothing to learn, and nothing to lose.
Maybe i should brush my teeth and call it a night.

I need to be reminded what Fridays feel like.
I forgot.
Seriously.
While i was on the bus heading to work today, i couldn't decide what was worse: not being in school, or going to work.
Its weird looking out the window, going 55 and seeing kids sitting in soccer fields while teachers helplessly try to get them to move. Our world is slowly turning into something that people are going to look back on and say "what the hell were we thinking"

I still hug teddy bears when i'm lonely.

I love cloudless nights. But i don't mind the over cast ones either.
Especially when you can see the outlines of formations in the sky.
One day i'm going to play "whats that shape" in the dark.

I wish i could be more helpful...
I wish i was that over-the-counter happy pill.
But i'm not.
Which reminds me, i need to find someone to prescribe them to me
and won't charge me 80/hour to come to the conclusion that i live to much in the past.

I relate strongly to the character "Elphaba" in the book/play WICKED.
The line "Beautifully Tragic" speaks to me strongly.
Yeah, its kinda sad, but that's what i am.
Inside, not so much green-skin type.

Beuno chocolates are love.
So are repeats of FNMTV.
Cause i'm lame, and could never catch them on their original air date.
Slushies and Popcorn are excellent for dinner.
Pizza for dessert.
Gah, i did so well yesterday eating healthy.

I wrote more on paper bags.
I can't recall if i wanted to post anything on them or not...
To lazy to dig them out of my purse.

"your not hopeless, or helpless, and i don't mean to sound cold, you don't know what love is, you just do as your told"

Ever listen to a cd, and just write random lines of lyrics as you were going along? thats kinda what i'm doing now.
The above can be shouted out to whoever feels it relevant. Its by the White Stripes.

I work tomorrow.
130-6. And then hanging out with Cole.
Hopefully. I havn't seen him in awhile.
That kid's like lollipops on acid...
And together we're dangerous.
To bad it'll be to late for bubble tea.
Whatever.